Venting Do I need to be absolutely sure in my suicide in order to go through with it?

[absolute failure]

I am suicidal again and i want to ctb, but the thought also makes my heart rush. Is that normal with other people aswell or am I actually just too much of a loser to go through with it?

 

[ladyofsorrows]

i feel the same way :/ in my case it stems from the fact that i have to ctb but don't want to. i do want to live, just not like this.

 

[absolute failure]

i feel the same way :/ in my case it stems from the fact that i have to ctb but don't want to. i do want to live, just not like this.

Im sorry you feel this way too. For me: I have tried to live, but I am just an absolute failure in everything I do, that is why I need to ctb. Do you have a method for yourself in mind?

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Well, you can't undo it. On the other hand, what's so bad about eternal sleep? I'm sure everyone has mixed feelings to some extent due to SI

 

[absolute failure]

Well, you can't undo it. On the other hand, what's so bad about eternal sleep? I'm sure everyone has mixed feelings to some extent due to SI

Thank you for your response! Do you have a method you could recommend me?

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Thank you for your response! Do you have a method you could recommend me?

Against the rules. Me? Thinking FSH

 

[MimiMiku]

Yes you should be absolutely sure. CTB is probably the biggest choice anyone can make in their life. Also I think it's normal to feel strong emotions about CTB because I feel like there is no painless way to go about it, just less painful ways.
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[absolute failure]

Against the rules. Me? Thinking FSH

Whats fsh, you can also pm me

Yes you should be absolutely sure. CTB is probably the biggest choice anyone can make in their life. Also I think it's normal to feel strong emotions about CTB because I feel like there is no painless way to go about it, just less painful ways.
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Thanks, I am glad i am not the only one who feels quite overwhelmed by the thought of it

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Full
Suspension
Hanging

 

[absolute failure]

Full
Suspension
Hanging

Then we have the same method my friend :)

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I think this is normal. I also want to CTB, yet at the same time, I want to live as well. However, I feel like I'm not worthy of life after making so many monumental mistakes

Glad to see many other people planning to do FSH. That's gonna be my method too

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yes. If I wasn't sure I would wait.

 

[fyer]

I am suicidal again and i want to ctb, but the thought also makes my heart rush. Is that normal with other people aswell or am I actually just too much of a loser to go through with it?

I think its not possible to be entirely sure. I think anybody who considers it, or who had done this had at least a little thought of not doing it. it's normal but sometimes life becomes so unbearable that you do it even whithout being fully sure

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I think this is normal. I also want to CTB, yet at the same time, I want to live as well. However, I feel like I'm not worthy of life after making so many monumental mistakes

Glad to see many other people planning to do FSH. That's gonna be my method too

I feel the same way. The good thing about my anxious misery is that the doubt is dwindling. I just want an opportunity to make it stop. I only have about an hour to do it now. I won't. I'll have to toughen up and work for a couple hours. But tonight I could do it

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I feel the same way. The good thing about my anxious misery is that the doubt is dwindling. I just want an opportunity to make it stop.

I'm glad you're becoming less plagued by doubt. For me, my confidence oscillates wildly. Just a few hours ago, I was so sure that maybe I should give life a try, but then I was hit with a wave of despair and had an epiphany that I need to CTB ASAP

Being tossed between hope and despair is such a terrible feeling

 

[Lost Magic]

Survival instinct is what keeps us going. Our bodies are basically hard-wired to prevent us from harming ourselves. Some people live with suicidal ideation their whole lives while others go through with it. It's different for every individual.

 

[ladyofsorrows]

Im sorry you feel this way too. For me: I have tried to live, but I am just an absolute failure in everything I do, that is why I need to ctb. Do you have a method for yourself in mind?

same here i'm a failure in pretty much every area of my life. i do have a method in mind, but i'm not 100% sure it'll work :(

 

[absolute failure]

same here i'm a failure in pretty much every area of my life. i do have a method in mind, but i'm not 100% sure it'll work :(

I think no method works 100 % , but thats okay for me. I am more scared of the long term consequences if people find out or i have long term issues from my attempt

 

[ladyofsorrows]

I think no method works 100 % , but thats okay for me. I am more scared of the long term consequences if people find out or i have long term issues from my attempt

same, my number one fear is failing my attempt

 

[absolute failure]

same, my number one fear is failing my attempt

Does your method have a high failure rate?

 

[itsgone2]

same here i'm a failure in pretty much every area of my life. i do have a method in mind, but i'm not 100% sure it'll work :(

Same here. I've failed every aspect of life, and now afraid I'll mess this up. Either fsh and a knot comes loose or gunshot to head that doesn't do the trick. Or I stay a coward and don't even try.

To OP, my heart races too, I think it's normal, given what we're considering

 

[ladyofsorrows]

Does your method have a high failure rate?

not really, it's just the fact that it's kind of a fringe method that's got me bugging. also has to be timed right (have to take a shit ton of benzos and atarax then also drink a bunch to curb SI).

i don't wanna name my method out of a weird fear of jinxing it (ocd lol) so sorry for being vague

 

[absolute failure]

not really, it's just the fact that it's kind of a fringe method that's got me bugging. also has to be timed right (have to take a shit ton of benzos and atarax then also drink a bunch to curb SI).

i don't wanna name my method out of a weird fear of jinxing it (ocd lol) so sorry for being vague

Its fine, i can see how ODing on some chemicals could work. I would be scared to vomit it out and i dont have the recourses to get any. Thats why i chose hanging: nothing illegal in the process