BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,635
Same shit, different day.
Things are getting worse and worse. A big part of it is likely because I'm putting no more effort in to fix things myself. I know what I need to be doing. I just don't care, because even if this situation gets better I still have to live and manage my depression and shit. I don't want any of it. Nothing seems worth it to me.
I don't care enough to even take care of myself. I know I keep going on about showering but I just can't do it. I've worn the same clothes all week. I used to care enough to use bath wipes to clean myself but I last did that in May or so.
My brain feels sick. And I feel like a bad person because I don't care enough to, or feel like I can, fix it. I've been headed this way for a long time and it didn't matter that I worked so hard to try and get better. I continue to fall into these double depressions and it hurts. I wish people irl could understand that I'm really not trying to be lazy or childish.
Things are getting worse and worse. A big part of it is likely because I'm putting no more effort in to fix things myself. I know what I need to be doing. I just don't care, because even if this situation gets better I still have to live and manage my depression and shit. I don't want any of it. Nothing seems worth it to me.
I don't care enough to even take care of myself. I know I keep going on about showering but I just can't do it. I've worn the same clothes all week. I used to care enough to use bath wipes to clean myself but I last did that in May or so.
My brain feels sick. And I feel like a bad person because I don't care enough to, or feel like I can, fix it. I've been headed this way for a long time and it didn't matter that I worked so hard to try and get better. I continue to fall into these double depressions and it hurts. I wish people irl could understand that I'm really not trying to be lazy or childish.