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kindawannacrylol
Student
- Jan 13, 2021
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I am extremely suicidal and i've never really had stable emotions but i'm starting think that i'm becoming extremely sensitive to things abd i feel my emotions more sharply and intensely then other people. Now this could just be me making things up in my head or it could be real i'm not sure. My parents are very very abusive, when i go back home to visit them, they often hurl their verbal abuse at me, the last time it happened, I fell into a state of shock and stared into the wall trying to block out everything they were saying, i immediately felt extremely suicidal, and went back into ny room to formulate a plan, method, date and time for my next attempt. Since it was my birthday, later that day I went out for drinks with some friends, I don't often feel happy so that was a lot for me, i felt so good and so blissful i forgot i was even depressed in the first place, i started visualising my next birthday and my goals for this year and everything i wanted to get done. Once i got home my mood sank back and i spent my night uncontrollably crying. Are my emotions more intense than a regularly suicidal person?