Do I deserve to feel pain and get help even if I caused my own suffering?

[19andOverdue]

I've had BPD, BDD, and chronic suicidality for my entire life. I can never commit to starving myself, and I'll never be able to make friends in part because of my weight, but also my shattered personality. Worst part is, there is no explanation except for my own self-destruction. How can I get help?

 

[Torabol]

That question comes out of feelings of Guilt. Yes you deserve help, and if you want it, I highly suggest giving it a try.

Have a blessed day.

 

[19andOverdue]

That question comes out of feelings of Guilt. Yes you deserve help, and if you want it, I highly suggest giving it a try.

Have a blessed day.

It's possible my deep rooted shame has biased me into making everything my fault

 

[Pluto]

It's not your fault. Caregivers have a responsibility to detect and deal with conditions that arise from a young age. Otherwise, almost everyone would end up off the rails.

When I went through this, the explanations that were given were biased towards helping my family evade responsibility for emotional abuse. Blaming the victim is an easy cop-out. Only when I did my own research and sought good psychological help did I finally get proper diagnoses and explanations that actually made sense.