do any of you take suicide light hearted?

[xXSufferingXx]

i kinda admire those people who can take their own suicide with a smile.
or at least the time up until their suicide.
if you dont know what im talking about;
i just mean those type of people who are like "yeah it sucks obviously, but it is what it is, so let's just laugh about it".

kinda liek that song "always look on the bright side of life".

now, as much as they can laugh it off, i doubt that anyone has ever shot themselves in the head with a smile on their face.
it's obviously a coping mechanism.

but i can't do that.
i can joke about suicide and do it quite often, but i just mean... my overall mentality regarding my shit life, i can't laugh it off.

 

[Aflame5926]

i dont think it really "only" a coping mechanism.
i think it also a sweet relieve. if you already suffering for a long time the only thing you want is to stop it.
knowing that it finally ends and i can sleep will bring a smile in my face i guaranteer it.
for me it will be relieve

 

[Forveleth]

I do. I see my death as a long awaited relief from suffering. That definitely puts a smile on my face. I have also had a morbid sense if humor my entire life so that probably helps.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

i dont think it really "only" a coping mechanism.
i think it also a sweet relieve. if you already suffering for a long time the only thing you want is to stop it.
knowing that it finally ends and i can sleep will bring a smile in my face i guaranteer it.
for me it will be relieve

ofc a relief yes. but i mean as someone is going thru their daily shit life... i don't know how they can laugh it off.
i wish i could laugh it off

I do. I see my death as a long awaited relief from suffering. That definitely puts a smile on my face. I have also had a morbid sense if humor my entire life so that probably helps.

yes. only thing is the chance of survival and one's life is messed up even worse than before... that paranoia fucks me up lol

 

[Aflame5926]

ofc a relief yes. but i mean as someone is going thru their daily shit life... i don't know how they can laugh it off.
i wish i could laugh it off

i think that is an answer you would never will get

i might be wrong in my thinking here this is basicly the same saying"
"why is the sky blue?" or "why can he do something i cant"
both sentence to me sounds pretty much the same in my head.

but like i said i might be wrong here

 

[lpdsvm]

I view it as getting a permanent visa with no requirements. Killing myself? Suicide? Naah I cannot do it. It's gross for me. I want to just take my SN or anything available at that time and enter nothingness.
I try to never suppress my feelings. I notice them and they go away especially with my methods I feel great.

 

[purebliss]

For me and my CTB Partner this is just an "eh it is what is is. What is the point of lengthening our suffering", situation.

We took a huge credit and blast it all away right now.
Living our last week or two to the fullest potential.

We got SN
A rope
*Maybe* Nembutal, if it isn't a scam, which it prob is.
And 99% pure Helium currently in shipping.

So I guess we are pretty much safe with it all :>

Burn like a supernova and collapse. That's the only way we live our life right now ^~^
And hell is it fun.

I also got me sum drugs from DH to try before dying.

Just, live like any day is your last because you finally have a death date :>
Embrace it with the most sincere smile you have for the screaming sadness in your brain will finally come to an end

 

[Nolongerlive]

Well, in the past most likely i treated this on the more serious, sad manner like some of you.

But now, i think it is also another way of life. Born, sick, aging, death. Nothing really fancy or romantic or sad about it.

When the time is up , spend all the money, have a good time and bye bye to the world .

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

For me and my CTB Partner this is just an "eh it is what is is. What is the point of lengthening our suffering", situation.

We took a huge credit and blast it all away right now.
Living our last week or two to the fullest potential.

We got SN
A rope
*Maybe* Nembutal, if it isn't a scam, which it prob is.
And 99% pure Helium currently in shipping.

So I guess we are pretty much safe with it all :>

Burn like a supernova and collapse. That's the only way we live our life right now ^~^
And hell is it fun.

I also got me sum drugs from DH to try before dying.

Just, live like any day is your last because you finally have a death date :>
Embrace it with the most sincere smile you have for the screaming sadness in your brain will finally come to an end

what is DH , some dark web market?

 

[purebliss]

what is DH , some dark web market?

Yep!

 

[bananaolympus]

When i did my attempt on my way to jumping i did not have a smile i wouldn't say happy but i did feel a lot of relief it was a positive feeling no sadness or regret, actually i was relaxed and my mind was calm