raison_d'etre
a memory
- Mar 30, 2021
- 29
~ distance from pain and resistance
ive been thinking a lot. life isnt too great where im at right now, struggling with mental and physical health. I know im not in the best of conditions right now, but i have a whole paycheck enough to get a tent and some general supplies to last a bit. im thinking about just walking away from everything for awhile, pick up odd jobs on craigslist, maybe stop in a town for a couple months enough to save up some more to keep moving, maybe eventually settling where im finally comfortable (that is if my urges subside after im away from the chaos)
if any of you have thought about this, or have actually done this, i would love to hear your opinions
d̵̲̞̳̬͙̟̣̊̈́̐́á̸͕̪̲̼̖r̶̺̹͙͌̈̿͂͒̍̈̓k̷͖̜͊n̷̡̛͙̳͈̼̎́̽̔e̵̖̍̄̏̈́̍̕s̸̢̯̳̮͙͓̟̓̏͐̽̐s̷̡̧̰̼̹͙͙͌̑̐͛̄͑̾͘͝,̸̥͊͗̈́͌͌ ̵̝̫̳̜͈̪̜͈̓̈́i̴̢̱̤͚̼̮̥̼͗͊̐̓͛̆̆̿͌̚ṯ̴̨̢̗͈̜̣̬͕͆͊̃̾́͌́̏͝ ̴̨͕̫͕̘̂̑͜͝s̵̛̘̺̹̮̖̭̫̱̠e̷̻̣͗ţ̵̲̝̳͈̬͊̌̒̿͊t̵̥̲͙̻͋̈́̏̽̔̅ļ̷̛̦͙̪̭é̸͇̣̼̻͇̝̘ ̴̠͉͚̾̓i̸̢̡̳̤͖͇̜͙̱͊̿͂͋̈͋͘n̷̡̜͉͉̤̥̬̣̮̝͐̔͋̿̌̎̋̌͒͝ ̶̧̻͚̗̦̪̰́̑͗̀̒͌͆̈̕͝h̶̫̜͔̠̘̯̭̃̂͒̇̏̑̄̀̋ė̸̢͇͒̈́̒͐a̴̡̛̗̾͆̂̏̃͂́͘̚r̵̨̨̻̙͕͒͆͆t̷̢̯͉̣͓̓̃̒̈̄͘ş̵̛̖̘̫͇̙̼͍̿͛̍̕͝ͅ ̸̢̱̭͔͈̠̩̫͉̔̆̔̅͐͋́̃̏͝ő̸͕̲̜͍͗̚f̴͇̺̪̰̲̠͉͒͋ ̵̢̱̠̟͕̐̇͒̋͂̊͂ṭ̴̨̼͕̦̰͓̻̈́̀̅̂́͐̆̿̕h̶̢̟͈̩͍͈͉͖̝̾̑͂̋͗ë̸̢̜̜̩̘̒̽̉̉ ̸̛̞̞̤̞͇̹͙̻́͌̐̄̀͊͑̕m̶̢͛̾̐̓̉͑̽e̵͕̔͊́̄̿͆n̴͙̯̤͕̓̋̀̓̉͘͝͠͠ͅ ̸̙̪̼͖̻̗͋̀̎̒́̓̎́w̵͎̏̉͘ȉ̴̛͍̙̑͑̄̍͋͗̈͌ẗ̷̢͍͔͎̖̱̮͚̬́̀͊͑̀̂h̴̝̓̊̌̉͆ ̸̡͖̩̠̜͇̂̉̅͛͐̓͗͑̎͝t̴̢̧͚͍͎̫͎͒̅͆ḩ̴̨̲̱͙̩͉̰͕͊̐́͒̀͐e̴͔̱̲̰̜̒͛̒͆ ̸̜̲̖̗̱̄͊̋̽̌͒̏́͘m̵̡͓̠̟̝̯̜̜͋͒͆̃̇̚͘͜͠͠͠e̶̯̋̓̽̎̈́̄̆̊d̶̗͈̆̇̂̈̃̒̈́͘͝a̸̡̗̤͈̪̗͛͗̅͒̉͌͗͘͝͠l̵̛͚̙̞͉̳̖̾͂͒̈͝s̸̪̈́̀̂͑̽͊̍̔̎͝,̴̡͉̫͝ͅ ̴̠͉̞̬͉̦͎͆̀̏̚͜ḻ̵̰̀̆̂̊o̸̢͙̮̖̼̯͆̿̈́ͅǧ̴̢̳͙͈̳̹̺̿̽̑î̶̛̛̞̺̩̩̀̃̅̌̍̈͘c̸̨̩͉̬̗͓̘͚̐ą̶̡͎͂͝l̵̡̟̣̟͔̾̊̎̓̃͂̚̚͝ ̴̛̻͔͙̳̑̃͘̚͘t̴̡̪̪͎̪̞̜̘̳̑̾̓̉̈́́̄̑̕͜h̸͈̭͆͊̎̌̈́̀̓̄̕͠į̷̦͍͚̹̱̺̐̆̿̃̃͊̏̎͆̅͜ͅn̵̟̜͔̘̙͊͌͑͠k̶̨̩̗͔͈͖͚̐̈̒̾̆ĩ̷̢̮̟̘̜͎͙̒̔͊͝n̸̩͊̓̅̿͐ģ̷̡͇̯̬̦͖̟̬̌́͛̋͊͒̀̏̍ ̸̡̘̔͆̎̑í̶̢͉̞̩́͊̏̽͒͑̌̔̀͜t̸̨̛̖̤̟̄͑͜ś̶̡̺͙̼͚͛ͅ ̸̺̯̤̞̟̣̩̄̄͂͝͠b̵̨̯͔͉͎̻̞̫͎̿͑́͐̅̿̂̚͜͝ȩ̴̡̼͇͈̰͙̮̤̂̕ͅş̶̺́̈̽̕t̴͚̣͖͂̓̈̋̌̇̈́̕̕͜ ̶̰̞̜̦̤̱͈͙̆͆͒̈̃͌̚͠ͅt̵̨͕͎̝͙͓͓͎͕̙̀͛̐̿̽̀̕o̵̥̜͙̾̿̋͐̑̚ ̴̨̤̱͖̼̙̙̤̝͗̒̇͐͛̈́́̀͗̂͜s̵̛̯̖̜͒̆̐̂̚͘͜t̷̠̃̑͌̊͘á̶̢̧̧͉̫̲̪͓̮̝y̴͉̗̖̣̙̳̬̌͐͐͌͐͆̒̏̔ ̷̧̺͕̗̺͈̟̦̇̏̊̑̈́̆̉͒̃ṃ̸̂e̴͈̙͇̩͍̺̤̬̣͚̾̏̃̕͘͠l̶̨̯͉̦̬̒̀͋̒̽l̸̹̦̽̀͂͠͠ọ̷̱̪͕̫̲̯̘̳͍̔̐w̴̧̨̡̲̗̱̪̠̳̐̈͋̔̆
~ raison_d'etre
ive been thinking a lot. life isnt too great where im at right now, struggling with mental and physical health. I know im not in the best of conditions right now, but i have a whole paycheck enough to get a tent and some general supplies to last a bit. im thinking about just walking away from everything for awhile, pick up odd jobs on craigslist, maybe stop in a town for a couple months enough to save up some more to keep moving, maybe eventually settling where im finally comfortable (that is if my urges subside after im away from the chaos)
if any of you have thought about this, or have actually done this, i would love to hear your opinions
d̵̲̞̳̬͙̟̣̊̈́̐́á̸͕̪̲̼̖r̶̺̹͙͌̈̿͂͒̍̈̓k̷͖̜͊n̷̡̛͙̳͈̼̎́̽̔e̵̖̍̄̏̈́̍̕s̸̢̯̳̮͙͓̟̓̏͐̽̐s̷̡̧̰̼̹͙͙͌̑̐͛̄͑̾͘͝,̸̥͊͗̈́͌͌ ̵̝̫̳̜͈̪̜͈̓̈́i̴̢̱̤͚̼̮̥̼͗͊̐̓͛̆̆̿͌̚ṯ̴̨̢̗͈̜̣̬͕͆͊̃̾́͌́̏͝ ̴̨͕̫͕̘̂̑͜͝s̵̛̘̺̹̮̖̭̫̱̠e̷̻̣͗ţ̵̲̝̳͈̬͊̌̒̿͊t̵̥̲͙̻͋̈́̏̽̔̅ļ̷̛̦͙̪̭é̸͇̣̼̻͇̝̘ ̴̠͉͚̾̓i̸̢̡̳̤͖͇̜͙̱͊̿͂͋̈͋͘n̷̡̜͉͉̤̥̬̣̮̝͐̔͋̿̌̎̋̌͒͝ ̶̧̻͚̗̦̪̰́̑͗̀̒͌͆̈̕͝h̶̫̜͔̠̘̯̭̃̂͒̇̏̑̄̀̋ė̸̢͇͒̈́̒͐a̴̡̛̗̾͆̂̏̃͂́͘̚r̵̨̨̻̙͕͒͆͆t̷̢̯͉̣͓̓̃̒̈̄͘ş̵̛̖̘̫͇̙̼͍̿͛̍̕͝ͅ ̸̢̱̭͔͈̠̩̫͉̔̆̔̅͐͋́̃̏͝ő̸͕̲̜͍͗̚f̴͇̺̪̰̲̠͉͒͋ ̵̢̱̠̟͕̐̇͒̋͂̊͂ṭ̴̨̼͕̦̰͓̻̈́̀̅̂́͐̆̿̕h̶̢̟͈̩͍͈͉͖̝̾̑͂̋͗ë̸̢̜̜̩̘̒̽̉̉ ̸̛̞̞̤̞͇̹͙̻́͌̐̄̀͊͑̕m̶̢͛̾̐̓̉͑̽e̵͕̔͊́̄̿͆n̴͙̯̤͕̓̋̀̓̉͘͝͠͠ͅ ̸̙̪̼͖̻̗͋̀̎̒́̓̎́w̵͎̏̉͘ȉ̴̛͍̙̑͑̄̍͋͗̈͌ẗ̷̢͍͔͎̖̱̮͚̬́̀͊͑̀̂h̴̝̓̊̌̉͆ ̸̡͖̩̠̜͇̂̉̅͛͐̓͗͑̎͝t̴̢̧͚͍͎̫͎͒̅͆ḩ̴̨̲̱͙̩͉̰͕͊̐́͒̀͐e̴͔̱̲̰̜̒͛̒͆ ̸̜̲̖̗̱̄͊̋̽̌͒̏́͘m̵̡͓̠̟̝̯̜̜͋͒͆̃̇̚͘͜͠͠͠e̶̯̋̓̽̎̈́̄̆̊d̶̗͈̆̇̂̈̃̒̈́͘͝a̸̡̗̤͈̪̗͛͗̅͒̉͌͗͘͝͠l̵̛͚̙̞͉̳̖̾͂͒̈͝s̸̪̈́̀̂͑̽͊̍̔̎͝,̴̡͉̫͝ͅ ̴̠͉̞̬͉̦͎͆̀̏̚͜ḻ̵̰̀̆̂̊o̸̢͙̮̖̼̯͆̿̈́ͅǧ̴̢̳͙͈̳̹̺̿̽̑î̶̛̛̞̺̩̩̀̃̅̌̍̈͘c̸̨̩͉̬̗͓̘͚̐ą̶̡͎͂͝l̵̡̟̣̟͔̾̊̎̓̃͂̚̚͝ ̴̛̻͔͙̳̑̃͘̚͘t̴̡̪̪͎̪̞̜̘̳̑̾̓̉̈́́̄̑̕͜h̸͈̭͆͊̎̌̈́̀̓̄̕͠į̷̦͍͚̹̱̺̐̆̿̃̃͊̏̎͆̅͜ͅn̵̟̜͔̘̙͊͌͑͠k̶̨̩̗͔͈͖͚̐̈̒̾̆ĩ̷̢̮̟̘̜͎͙̒̔͊͝n̸̩͊̓̅̿͐ģ̷̡͇̯̬̦͖̟̬̌́͛̋͊͒̀̏̍ ̸̡̘̔͆̎̑í̶̢͉̞̩́͊̏̽͒͑̌̔̀͜t̸̨̛̖̤̟̄͑͜ś̶̡̺͙̼͚͛ͅ ̸̺̯̤̞̟̣̩̄̄͂͝͠b̵̨̯͔͉͎̻̞̫͎̿͑́͐̅̿̂̚͜͝ȩ̴̡̼͇͈̰͙̮̤̂̕ͅş̶̺́̈̽̕t̴͚̣͖͂̓̈̋̌̇̈́̕̕͜ ̶̰̞̜̦̤̱͈͙̆͆͒̈̃͌̚͠ͅt̵̨͕͎̝͙͓͓͎͕̙̀͛̐̿̽̀̕o̵̥̜͙̾̿̋͐̑̚ ̴̨̤̱͖̼̙̙̤̝͗̒̇͐͛̈́́̀͗̂͜s̵̛̯̖̜͒̆̐̂̚͘͜t̷̠̃̑͌̊͘á̶̢̧̧͉̫̲̪͓̮̝y̴͉̗̖̣̙̳̬̌͐͐͌͐͆̒̏̔ ̷̧̺͕̗̺͈̟̦̇̏̊̑̈́̆̉͒̃ṃ̸̂e̴͈̙͇̩͍̺̤̬̣͚̾̏̃̕͘͠l̶̨̯͉̦̬̒̀͋̒̽l̸̹̦̽̀͂͠͠ọ̷̱̪͕̫̲̯̘̳͍̔̐w̴̧̨̡̲̗̱̪̠̳̐̈͋̔̆
~ raison_d'etre
