SterileMoth
Who knows man
- Jul 9, 2020
- 74
I feel so disconnected
I feel like I got tossed into a different timeline
Like the last two months couldn't have possibly happened to me
My memory of them is spotty
Nothing feels real
I don't recognize myself in the mirror
Everything is disjointed
Disassembled
Destroyed
But it couldn't be me
Because I should be in a different version of reality
Where I can still smile sometimes
And I still have my fiance
And food doesn't feel like wet cement
And I don't need to smoke weed to feel okay.
Where I can see my friends
And the earth isn't burning
And everything is okay
Sorted
Planned
And defined.
I feel lost
And empty
And broken.
I feel out of place
Something is off but I can't fix it
Something is drilling a hole into my stomach
Something is hoping I choke on my own vomit till I'm blue
Something is so very fucking wrong
With me
With this place
With this world
With everything that's happening.
It's all a fucking illusion
Some kind of distortion
I don't feel right.
I do not belong here.
This is not the right place.
Take me back
To the happy days
I can't take much more
I feel like I got tossed into a different timeline
Like the last two months couldn't have possibly happened to me
My memory of them is spotty
Nothing feels real
I don't recognize myself in the mirror
Everything is disjointed
Disassembled
Destroyed
But it couldn't be me
Because I should be in a different version of reality
Where I can still smile sometimes
And I still have my fiance
And food doesn't feel like wet cement
And I don't need to smoke weed to feel okay.
Where I can see my friends
And the earth isn't burning
And everything is okay
Sorted
Planned
And defined.
I feel lost
And empty
And broken.
I feel out of place
Something is off but I can't fix it
Something is drilling a hole into my stomach
Something is hoping I choke on my own vomit till I'm blue
Something is so very fucking wrong
With me
With this place
With this world
With everything that's happening.
It's all a fucking illusion
Some kind of distortion
I don't feel right.
I do not belong here.
This is not the right place.
Take me back
To the happy days
I can't take much more