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- Jan 18, 2021
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It has been my experience that people do not actually care whether I am suicidal or not. Over the last few years, I reached out to several friends and talked about my depression and suicidal tendencies. There hasn't been any concern about my mental well being from anybody. A few of them stopped talking to me because they deem me to be "too negative". I pinged one of my old friends a few days ago and she asked me how it is that I haven't died yet. She was probably joking but the thing is no one takes it seriously when I seek help. When a celebrity dies of suicide, these are the same people who publish posts on social media about how depressed people should "seek help" or how "suicide is not an option" or that they are there to support anyone who needs help. I also told my sister on several occasions about how I am not planning to live more than a few years. She is a doctor, she listens to me, but never again discusses or enquires about my depression.
My intention behind talking about suicidal ideas with my friends is not to seek attention or sympathy but to exhaust all options before I make the final step.
I hope to minimize the suffering I might cause to other people when I catch the bus. Now that I have told them about it I guess nobody can complain that I did not reach out.
Although I am most definitely sad about the fact that my mother is not alive, I feel relieved that this is the case. She would have suffered the most if I were to die. All I have is a 16-year-old dog who is dependent on me. Once he is gone I am free to take the step whenever I want.
My intention behind talking about suicidal ideas with my friends is not to seek attention or sympathy but to exhaust all options before I make the final step.
I hope to minimize the suffering I might cause to other people when I catch the bus. Now that I have told them about it I guess nobody can complain that I did not reach out.
Although I am most definitely sad about the fact that my mother is not alive, I feel relieved that this is the case. She would have suffered the most if I were to die. All I have is a 16-year-old dog who is dependent on me. Once he is gone I am free to take the step whenever I want.