Digital Self-Harm

[ineed2die]

I think we all digital self-harm on this site (unless you are a lurker).
How do you digital-self harm?

I post threads like this (among others). And my credit card information.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Your credit card information? Has anyone stolen from you yet? Did the bank still repay you?

I suppose my least healthy habits are for having a morbid fascination with things like industrial disasters. Not gore. But, I've watched things like the HBO series on Chernobyl a few times. Not really good because the horror of it tends to stay with me.

Also, other times companies have put profits over lives. Boeing, Dupont, Union Carbide are the obvious ones. I suppose it just confirms to me how corrupt this world is. I can't be alone in having this sort of fascination- over serial killers too. There's so much media about on them. It must be a common interest. Still, it's likely not healthy exactly.

I'm not sure I'd class being on this site as 'self-harm'. I expect the more 'normie' viewpoint would see it like that though. It's not exactly brimming with optimism! I don't feel like it's brought me down any further though. If anything, it's given me a sense of community.

I think the more 'normie' people in our lives like to believe we can talk to them about anything but the truth is, we probably can't. They'd likely find it too depressing, too opressing and too distressing. I actually think it's kinder to spare them all that. Especially if/ when their responses to previous attempts don't help either party.

I suppose the hope is that if we put on a more 'normie' optimistic facade in front of them and everyone else, we'll eventually genuinely feel that way. 'Fake it till you make it' type of thing. I'm not convinced it works that way though. Maybe it's not good to wallow in sadness and self pity either but I think, just pretending it isn't there doesn't make it go away.

 

[ineed2die]

no nothing happened when i posted my info surprisingly. That card is expired now too.

 

[DevonBostick'sAss]

Lemme get your card info imma show you the real digital harm lmaoo (jk jk)

 

[Aloneandinpain]

I ask AI stuff about my pathetic situation and then insist on more scathing and brutally honest answers. Grok is especially honest.

 

[internetyamero]

digital selfharm for me is probably looking up things that i know will purposefully distress me and make me feel even worse about myself when im in an already bad headspace. nothing like gore or actual, physical self harm, im too much of a wuss for that weirdly enough, but reading up on things like if people think ctb is selfish, if god would hate me for ctb (despite me not following any religions), etc.

also as you said, being on this site and other places that have similar communities, although that one is debatable. i suppose it just depends on your view. this place gives me a sense of community, but at the same time i know people in my life wouldnt be happy if they knew i was on it, and they certainly would see it as a form of self harm.

 

[Pluto]

 

[IsolatedChaos]

I think we all digital self-harm on this site (unless you are a lurker).
How do you digital-self harm?

I post threads like this (among others). And my credit card information.

I think my lurking (and lately interacting) on this site is a way to self-harm. I know it may sound stupid being on here and all but I am on the fence still about trying to fight against my desire to die again, and maybe me being here is a slippery slope. Ultimately everything will be my decision, but I do feel like there is support to be found here and it's so easy to get sucked in. I'd like to trust myself to leave if I see it's becoming too much, but honestly... I am far from being in the right mind to know what I want right now.

 

[2messdup]

Looking at wpd, and looking at comments on the Telegraph (UK) newspaper articles about mental health and benefits. The first makes me feel sick at the horrors human beings will descend to and visibly enjoy and makes me ashamed at watching it. The second makes me feel hated, demonised and worthless. I prefer more physical forms of self harm because the mental torture of digital is far worse than the pain of physical methods.

 

[LivingDeadTGirl]

This site is not self harm, this site is therapeutic. Where else in the world are you going to be able to talk and vent or even casually joke about ctb without worrying about poisoning an innocent with your darkness? Everybody here already has that darkness. Even if you're not talking about anything dark on here, we all share something huge in common and relate to each other.

I self harm digitally by selling my body and my most intimate moments online or give it away for free just to feel wanted.

 

[2messdup]

This site is not self harm, this site is therapeutic. Where else in the world are you going to be able to talk and vent or even casually joke about ctb without worrying about poisoning an innocent with your darkness? Everybody here already has that darkness. Even if you're not talking about anything dark on here, we all share something huge in common and relate to each other.

I self harm digitally by selling my body and my most intimate moments online or give it away for free just to feel wanted.

Yeah. Since I've got the info on my methods and that can't be undone, this site is beneficial. What's called peer support they'd say

 

[milkteacrown]

I sell myself online. I hate it, and that's why I do it.

This site is not self harm, this site is therapeutic. Where else in the world are you going to be able to talk and vent or even casually joke about ctb without worrying about poisoning an innocent with your darkness? Everybody here already has that darkness. Even if you're not talking about anything dark on here, we all share something huge in common and relate to each other.

I self harm digitally by selling my body and my most intimate moments online or give it away for free just to feel wanted.

I connect with you on that. I'm so sorry you go through this as well.