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Kalista
Failed hard to pull the trigger - Now using SN
- Feb 5, 2023
- 245
i'll always be different compared to the majority of the people i meet, if not all. on here, there may be agreements on views regarding suicide as a choice, but beyond that, there's not much else.
out of the forum, im criticized about my sensitivity to things. it can be true, still doesn't deny the fact that i am more sensitive to things than the people who used to surround me and it fucking hurts to feel it.
people exhaust me. it's a mixed need to keep them away and to keep a few around because of my intense loneliness. things can be easier when im on my own, but i still long for a strong connection with someone. last relationship had it, then it was torn. at least i used to long for it. now i don't want to be that strongly connected with anyone else.
ive reached numbness. i wake up from a dream, have thoughts, but feel not really much of anything. am i used to this? is my mind protecting me again?
my goal hasn't changed.
out of the forum, im criticized about my sensitivity to things. it can be true, still doesn't deny the fact that i am more sensitive to things than the people who used to surround me and it fucking hurts to feel it.
people exhaust me. it's a mixed need to keep them away and to keep a few around because of my intense loneliness. things can be easier when im on my own, but i still long for a strong connection with someone. last relationship had it, then it was torn. at least i used to long for it. now i don't want to be that strongly connected with anyone else.
ive reached numbness. i wake up from a dream, have thoughts, but feel not really much of anything. am i used to this? is my mind protecting me again?
my goal hasn't changed.