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suicidal.lady

Member
Feb 20, 2020
46
Hi,
How does everyone cope with this feeling of sadness & emptiness? How do you cope with not being able to ctb? How do you cope with the thoughts and the feelings and urges?
 
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Torabol

Torabol

Student
Apr 15, 2023
107
My answer to all of those is hobbies and substances. Reading and writing, painting, programming. Video games, sometimes. Alcohol and cannabis on ocassion.

The bottom line is I distract myself as much as I can with things I can still squeeze a bit of enjoyment out of.
 
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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

âśż
Oct 9, 2022
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Basically distracting myself with things when I have the energy and motivation to. I have to wait a while before I ctb so I'm constantly distracting myself.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,804
I keep promising myself, "This too will pass."
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,830
The fact is that if one doesn't ctb then they basically have no choice but to continue existing and as a result they will inevitably suffer. It's reality, even if there was no extreme suffering in this world the feelings of emptiness and dissatisfaction would always remain, it's certainly a curse being trapped in this world with no straightforward way to leave, life itself really is the true problem.
 
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Anonymus

Enlightened
May 6, 2022
1,355
I can't deal with it.. I can't.
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No puc pas fer-hi front.. no puc.
 
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Valky

Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
Sometimes I just don't. Sometimes I just hold on cause that is all I can do in that moment.

Recovery is not a steady path and you will feel yourself being stuck or like it will never get better. But I promise you, that is not the truth.

Try literally whatever you wanna do. Fuck everything. Someone once said to me 'As long as you don't put yourself or others in danger, do whatever makes you happy' and I try to live by that. If we already have to endure existing we might as well try to make the best out of it. But I know, alone that can be incredibly exhausting.

So remember. Everyday you have survived is a successful day.

'It's okay if all you did today was survive'
 
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unnormal9

unnormal9

SOLDIER T.
Apr 12, 2023
1,134
I self harm everyday, and attempt at least two methods everyday. I overdose often.
 
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