Discussion Did you have THE Chance to CTB but you hesitated and regreted it not to have taken the chance?

[Praestat_Mori]

Lately I had a nearly perfect chance carring out my CTB plan being 100% sure that nobody will be able to interfere. In the end I hesitated too much and now the chance is over for an indefinite amount of time and I regret it so much now. It kills and tortures me mentally.

 

[Little_Suzy]

If you have been up for 3-4 days, you will do anything to sleep. You're exhausted and can't muster the strength to negotiate your survival. That is exactly what happened in my case.

 

[Mechanical Dance]

A few years ago I had a perfect opportunity, had the rope, had the place, was alone and nothing could have stopped me except for myself, which is sadly what happened. I'm not someone who thinks too much about the past, I don't like it, but if there's a moment I wish I could go back to, it's definitely that one.

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

It's understandable to feel defeated after a failed ctb attempt. Something a member of this forum said that really stuck with me is that "It's never to late to catch the bus"
My best wishes for you.

 

[CrappyMJ]

I had access to a rifle a few months ago and I was planning to do it. We were on a shooting range with about 50 other people. I really believed that day was my final day. But in the end I couldn't go through with it.

I would 100% do it if I was alone and had some time but in the heat of the moment, with lots of bullets going off, I gave up...

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

If you have been up for 3-4 days, you will do anything to sleep. You're exhausted and can't muster the strength to negotiate your survival. That is exactly what happened in my case.

I literally just posted about this.
It was during the beginning of the Pandemic.
First I was refusing to wear a mask....hoping I would catch the virus.
How perfect because no one would assume I tried to pass away (I prefer saying pass away instead of Sui*ide).
At the very start my depression hit hard because I was worried about paying my bills. So during that time I don't know why I didn't try.
The world was locked away .
It would of been days or weeks before I was found because my mom was the only one checking on me.
I'm really angry I didn't try.

 

[depresso_expresso03]

Yep. I was on the edge of a 600m tall cliff, all I had to do was step forward and take the leap. At one point I was even sitting on the ledge with one leg over. But for some reason I didn't do it.