Discussion did you guys lose any loved ones yet ?

[mittymittens]

i lost my dad last year, it's been hard, sometimes i wish i lost my feelings permanently in some sick way so id stop feeling sad about it.

doesn't have to be death either, anyone break up, cut you off, or you decided to leave them, why?

 

[Ligottian]

Quite a few friends and relatives, including both parents.

 

[Realgar]

Yes, friends and relatives. The most painful deaths were my 2 dogs.

 

[itsgone2]

Before 14 I lost three grandparents and my father. Last grandparent about 10 years later. Brother, suicide, about 4 years ago. I think to many deaths too close together when young helped shape me, negatively. Not the only things that did but a part of it.

 

[ScholarOfDespair]

Yes, I have lost many relatives and the saddest part was that a lot of them were so young, the youngest being only 16 years of age.

 

[mittymittens]

Yes, friends and relatives. The most painful deaths were my 2 dogs.

what breeds were the dogs ? sorry for your losses

 

[Forveleth]

Been going to family funerals since I was 8 months old I always think it is the reason why I am so desensitized to dying and see death as a natural part of life. While most were extended family I did not see often, I do miss a few relatives that I have lost.

As for friends, I am usually the one to cut them off. We have all changed as people as we grew older and what bound us in friendship originally is no longer applicable, so I stopped talking to them. Do not miss them persay, more the nostalgia of when things were better.

Am currently so self-isolated due to my depression that I do not really miss anyone. I do not have feelings for anyone external anymore.

 

[MyShadow]

i lost my dad last year, it's been hard, sometimes i wish i lost my feelings permanently in some sick way so id stop feeling sad about it.

doesn't have to be death either, anyone break up, cut you off, or you decided to leave them, why?

Lost my dad, brother, sister-in-law in less than a year of each other.
I've reached the age when I've lost more friends and family than I will gain.
Been to so many funerals in the past few years, I've lost count.
So tired of the losses.

 

[SparkleWater]

A couple but i think im gonna lose my mom real soon.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd lost 3 of my close family members by the time I was 10. My Mum when I was 3, Grandpa 4, Nana, 10. Since then, it's slowed down somewhat but still, a lot more loss. Maybe after the last few times- either because of death or, just moving away from people and losing touch, I decided I'd had enough. That the positives of having people and love in life and then losing that was too much to go through again. I'm a lot more solitary now. I'm a lot calmer as a result but, it's not exactly joyous either.

I haven't lost anyone in real life to suicide. As far as I know, I would be the first in my family to do it. However, after experiencing so much bereavement, I can't quit bring myself to do it to them. I'm hoping to be able to hold on for my last remaining close family member- my Dad to go first, before I follow him. Hopefully, in quick succession. I don't want to experience more prolongued grief over him again.

 

[Pfysch]

My ex(and rapist)'s sister killed herself around 3 years ago. Everyone was shocked, but no one was surprised. I talked again with her mom just a few months ago. She was just like me in a lot of ways.

 

[Irisse]

I lost my paternal grandparents and unborn sibling when I was 5. None of it was by suicide though. I think that's what caused my depression.

 

[karenin]

I lost my father, he CTB'd when I was in my early 20s. He made his decision out of the blue, but I think I understood his decision clearly. We had a lot in common. I also lost two friends of mine, one in car crash accident, and the other accidental OD' after his brother suicide. All of them had really tough life.

 

[RoseGirl]

gf died. hung 2 weeks ago.
mum died. long time ago, I'd be in a better place if she was in my life.

 

[Grav]

My grandfather back in 1975. The best adult I ever knew and I wanted to be like him so much. I probably would be dealing with life much better if he had made it through my teenage years.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Both parents have died in last 7 years. I'm 58
I think losing my father has driven me to a breakdown
Rather cos so much was unresolved between us than because we were super close which we weren't

 

[ChaosMaid]

I lost my best and only friend to suicide by overdosing in her apartment washroom 2 years ago. She was 17, i'm 20 now.
it completely changed my life. all i do is rot in my room now abusing benzos hoping i drop dead in my sleep

 

[locked*n*loaded]

My entire family is gone. 100%. Like literally. I'm the last one left. Not a good place to be. I didn't ask for this shit.