Hi, my name is Cristian and Im from moldova the poorest country in the europe, my life started in 2000 and my mum loved me and i was happy at age of 13 devil started to target me, my family lost job and we was soo poor, my mum didnt cared about me and i felt so alone, and in school i started to get bullied every single day, once i was beated so bad and broke my jaw and my mum was called from hospital that im in comma and she didnt cared and forced me to go back at school after i woke from comma, i was constantly beaten and bullied and i stared to develop alot of bad feelings like i dont deserve to live, i started to fight to protect myself, and everyday i was fighting in school, my mum always scream at me to get good marks but i explayned her that i was bullied but she never cared, at 16 i discovered that i have severe scoliosis becouse i had back pain, at 16 i finished school in a severe depression, one day i shaved my hair and i stabbed myself in my body to die, i was bleeding and screaming and my mum called ambulance, after she saw that i tried to end my life she cryed and told me that shes sorry that she destroyed my life, i was at psicholog and i took alprazolam that made me feel better, now im 20 and my mum never brushed her teeth and at young age she had inplants she never bought me toothbrush and i never knew that i should brush my teeth , my teeth are in bad condition and i was at an incompetent dentist and accidentally destroyed my front teeth nerves and scratched them so bad and the aspect of my teeth is horrible and i dont have nerve in them and i dont feel them, my teeth hurts so bad and im afraid to visit again dentist, when i look in the mirror and ses my teeth that was destroyed my dentist i wanna die, my mum told me that people like like 80 years and the tkinging to live another day with pain scares me and i just wanna end it already i just want to escape from devil, i dont want to stabb myself again, please recommend me a pill or a suicide without pain, sorry for my english and thanks for reading it
Look in the resources section - there is a lot of information there. We cannot tell you what pills or method to take. It has to be your choice x
Midnight
Beyond solace
- Jun 30, 2018
- 624
That sounds like an awfull childhood you've had. It must have been hell. You're a strong person for still being here. I'm sorry i cannot offer any help ... I've known someone from Moldova once and watched some documentaries about it ... Life is very hard there. I wish you strenght.
Aj grija de tine.
Aj grija de tine.
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heartinacage
Member
- Mar 7, 2020
- 6
Hey. București aici. I'm very sorry you had to go through all of that. Bullies are morons and you didn't deserve what they did to you. I can relate to your problems with dentists, I am very afraid of them too. I stopped brushing my teeth during the period when my milk teeth were supposed to fall out because I was afraid of making them move and bleed and it took me a very long time to make it a habit again and I feel a lot of shame about it and it is painful too. I hate opening my mouth and I know that the longer I wait the worse it is going to get but I believe that it can be done. Physical things like this can be fixed. I found people around me that are not judging me for it and it makes it a little bit easier to cope.
Do you have any friends? Are you in school? Are you still seeing a psychologist? Things like this can help.
Do you have any friends? Are you in school? Are you still seeing a psychologist? Things like this can help.
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
I'm sorry honey, that life has been so unpleasant for u..I don't even know where to begin, that will bring some consolation for what ur going thru.
As someone asked, Do u have any friends u can speak to? They might not b able to "help" ur situation, but just having even one person to speak to/confide in, in real life, can often help to release ur burdens. Just a listening ear..
Even someone to encourage u..
I also don't want u to stab yourself again. Be kind to yourself..I want u to seek help n speak to someone 1st, before u decide on a method..
We might not b able to speak to u in person, but myself n MANY others r here for u, love..
As someone asked, Do u have any friends u can speak to? They might not b able to "help" ur situation, but just having even one person to speak to/confide in, in real life, can often help to release ur burdens. Just a listening ear..
Even someone to encourage u..
I also don't want u to stab yourself again. Be kind to yourself..I want u to seek help n speak to someone 1st, before u decide on a method..
We might not b able to speak to u in person, but myself n MANY others r here for u, love..
Thank you so much i hope to meet people like you in real life too, and yes I have a friend but he cant help me he is just interested in carsI'm sorry honey, that life has been so unpleasant for u..I don't even know where to begin, that will bring some consolation for what ur going thru.
As someone asked, Do u have any friends u can speak to? They might not b able to "help" ur situation, but just having even one person to speak to/confide in, in real life, can often help to release ur burdens. Just a listening ear..
Even someone to encourage u..
I also don't want u to stab yourself again. Be kind to yourself..I want u to seek help n speak to someone 1st, before u decide on a method..
We might not b able to speak to u in person, but myself n MANY others r here for u, love..
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
I'm so sorry for all your suffering. Maybe you should try a different dentist because, all dentists aren't bad. There are some very good ones who really help you. I hope your pain ends soon.
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