ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
65
😭😭😭😭 dear fam

I so wanna die desperately but not able to do so.
I tried partial hanging today but to no good.
I guess i could not find the sweet spot.
I did experience blackening.
Please guide me.
I am going through anxiety and panic.
Not feeling good at all.. so wanna cry
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,951
I understand just wanting to be gone, to me it feels so cruel how it's so difficult to die even know existence causes all this suffering, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace. But anyway I hope that you find the relief you search for, best wishes.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
65
I understand just wanting to be gone, to me it feels so cruel how it's so difficult to die even know existence causes all this suffering, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace. But anyway I hope that you find the relief you search for, best wishes.
Thank you dear
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,517
For me, jumping will always be my fail safe if nothing else works.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
65
For me, jumping will always be my fail safe if nothing else works.
I don't have a place to jump from unfortunately. That's actually fail safe. I was thinking of train but not sure. Any idea how to make partial hanging a success?
 
MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,517
I don't unfortunately. It's not a method I have ever considered. Only full, which I would accomplish by using one of the commercially-sturdy beams that the picnic shelters at the park have.
 
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tirednwired

Member
Oct 28, 2024
11
Hi friend, there's a thread somewhere here that talks about how to do a full suspension at home. All you need is a door, a rope, and something heavy. I can't find the thread because I don't have the search feature yet but if you really feel ctb is necessary, just letting you know it's out there. I do hope you can find what you're looking for in a way other than death, but I understand sometimes this isn't an option. Sending love :heart:
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
65
I don't unfortunately. It's not a method I have ever considered. Only full, which I would accomplish by using one of the commercially-sturdy beams that the picnic shelters at the park have.
I wish i could muster the courage to do the full suspension. Besides i don't have a good anchor point here in my room..
Thank you so much for your kind words. I wish ctb was easy. I would have left ages ago .
Your words made me feel better. Thank you again.
Hi friend, there's a thread somewhere here that talks about how to do a full suspension at home. All you need is a door, a rope, and something heavy. I can't find the thread because I don't have the search feature yet but if you really feel ctb is necessary, just letting you know it's out there. I do hope you can find what you're looking for in a way other than death, but I understand sometimes this isn't an option. Sending love :heart:
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,517
I wish i could muster the courage to do the full suspension. Besides i don't have a good anchor point here in my room..
Thank you so much for your kind words. I wish ctb was easy. I would have left ages ago .
Your words made me feel better. Thank you again.
You're welcome. I totally understand. And that is exactly why I would never consider partial. Because I feel that it allows survival instinct to kick in and that just simply cannot be a factor in ny successful method IMO.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
65
You're welcome. I totally understand. And that is exactly why I would never consider partial. Because I feel that it allows survival instinct to kick in and that just simply cannot be a factor in ny successful method IMO.
I wish there was an easy way out for ctb buddy
 
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