BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,635
I've just been sitting on the couch for a bit, doing a lot of staring. I feel so uncomfortable. My head is cloudy, I feel floaty, not quite in my body. I'm sick to my stomach all the time. I can't eat - all I had to eat yesterday was two pieces of lettuce, a cookie, a bit of pork, and half a banana. It's been like this for a week. I am really struggling to sleep. Can't fall asleep, constantly waking up in the middle of the night, having nightmares, waking up at 2 or 3 and just fucking laying there. I've been shuffling around the house for about a week. Right now, I feel like I'm "dead".
This is Hell. I want to die for real. I want to kill myself.
This is Hell. I want to die for real. I want to kill myself.