I have noticed that when I am more depressed than usual my interventions in conversations get cut off, ignored or talked over too frequently. It seems that being sad, wilted or dim gives your voice a certain inflection that makes it less interesting or respectable.
It's very tough to experience this over and over. I don't want to be alone but neither I want to go through that crap. This is one of the reasons why I stopped reading, since it's not like people were dying to heard whatever I might have learned.
this is how I have been treated my entire life, nothing I have to say needs to be heard, but let someone else say the same exact thing I just said, in front of the same exact people and all of a sudden not only is it important it is the right or correct thing and not one soul will even acknowledge that I used the same exact wording and said the same exact thing, no, you were talking about something else, it does not matter what I say or how I say it. I can say something completely scripted, well written, concise, it will be ignored and it will later be said, I said nothing liek what I claim that I said something else. I can scream and cuss filth foul, the same exact thing and then I a told I am being unreasonable and not talking about the same ting I am exactly talking about. I fucking hate neurotypicals. I hate humans. You shoved me away here, kicked me into the corner, slap me down constantly but refuse to let me leave bercause you insist you must have someone to shit on and wipe your ass with. (NOT directed at poster or ANY commenter, simply venting in general)
Yeah, I think you do, I definitely have noticed that my social anxiety makes me speak quieter or less clearly most of the time.
I have a very loud voice, even when I am trying to be quiet, I am partially death, have trouble understanding voices and every sound I make comes from the belly which makes me an awesome singer, everyone loves to hear me sing, rock, opera, pop, most anything I can fucking sing and people actually listen, if I could sing everything I talked bout at least I would get standing ovations but I guarantee after the standing ovation they would all turn to the one person who simply spoke the same exact word I just sang and be told wha a great novel idea.