Depressed in an "cute" way

[prettyclam]

I wish I was a cute depressed girl. The type where they wear pastel pink clothes in a messy apartment filled with stuffed animals. The type who watch anime or are obsessed with hair and makeup. The type that cut with pretty box cutters. The type that's super skinny despite eating junk. The type that fit all the cute vocaloid songs. The romanticized type.

Idk if any of what I wrote makes sense since it's kinda a niche topic. I try my best romanticizing my depression but it doesn't feel the same as when those girls do it. My bed is pastel colored with a bunch of my melody plushies. I wear egl clothes sometimes. If I'm not crying, I'm reading webtoons or fanfiction. Yet somehow I'm still not satisfied. I guess the depression is too strong lol

 

[evaa]

i relate w what ur seeing, i feel like us women are forced to perform even in our darkest time so we try to romanticize our depression. idk if that makes sense lol T-T

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Maybe that's a way to cope with it. Not the healthiest, but if it works for you, I'm happy it does. I think you have to allow yourself to be non-cute depressed too to let it out once in a while, so it doesn't overwhelm you. If anything, it adds depth to your "cute" side.

 

[Cosmophobic]

As a middle aged man I also find it difficult to be depressed in a cute girl way.

 

[EternalShore]

I don't think being depressed is very kyute, but there's more than 1 person who says every single thing I do is kyute sooo~ >_< you know, I do do quite a few of those things you described tho~
you do seem to fit a lot of the traits tho~ :) Probably more so than most other girls! ^_^ but yeahhh, depression really does its thing to make you feel awful in spite of that~ >_<
also, I'm pretty sure the vocaloid songs are targeted towards males who want to liberate the kyute girl from depression tho~ >_< which would be nice tbf~

As a middle aged man I also find it difficult to be depressed in a cute girl way.

rofl~

 

[GotTheTickets]

And I always thought that the depressed girls are that "dark goth" type. Stereotypes, right?

 

[fatty44]

Well, for me it manifested with looking very unapproachable and partly also poor hygiene since I was 12. Not fun. Was still able to finish school and get trained and do a job, until now.

Now I'm too depressed to even apply for unemployment benefits. I'm in a psych ward but it doesn't help me get better. Was my last try. Drinking SN on Saturday

 

[rainatthebusstop]

I wish I was a cute depressed girl. The type where they wear pastel pink clothes in a messy apartment filled with stuffed animals. The type who watch anime or are obsessed with hair and makeup. The type that cut with pretty box cutters. The type that's super skinny despite eating junk. The type that fit all the cute vocaloid songs. The romanticized type.

Idk if any of what I wrote makes sense since it's kinda a niche topic. I try my best romanticizing my depression but it doesn't feel the same as when those girls do it. My bed is pastel colored with a bunch of my melody plushies. I wear egl clothes sometimes. If I'm not crying, I'm reading webtoons or fanfiction. Yet somehow I'm still not satisfied. I guess the depression is too strong lol

so from what I am reading you're trying to go for the menhera/jirai kei aesthetic. Which is fine on its own, really, but you need to remember that you are real human being with more going on than just her aesthetic. That sometimes doing your make up and hair is hard. That often, people with depression struggle with basic hygiene, let alone care for hair and makeup.

It feels different because those girls are putting on an act in public and online. Because it is a romanticized image. A nice one, and there's no shame in wanting to emulate it if that makes you more comfortable. But beneath that romanticization, you are a person who's allowed to not be cute.

 

[monetpompo]

I wish I was a cute depressed girl. The type where they wear pastel pink clothes in a messy apartment filled with stuffed animals. The type who watch anime or are obsessed with hair and makeup. The type that cut with pretty box cutters. The type that's super skinny despite eating junk. The type that fit all the cute vocaloid songs. The romanticized type.

i understand exactly what you're talking about!!!!
i feel like there's cute depressed (pastel goth girl who watches anime), sexy depressed (hypersexual goth bpd girl with low self esteem and mood swings), and then loser depressed girl who doesn't leave her room and is offputting to everyone because she makes people sad when she talks to them.

being depressed hasn't made me sexy or hot or cute or whatever. i just feel like a gross loser with rope in his closet. i feel like a failure for not even being able to be depressed in an attractive way. even though i'm transmasc i still fall into the societal trap of wanting to my mental illness to be the one that people find endearing and loveable. i can only be insecure for so long until people start thinking that i'm annoying to be around and leave me for someone else. wearing black and looking sad all the time isn't where my depression cuts off, even if guys would like that more.