123die

123die

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Feb 16, 2019
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I saw a thread of someone asking what final preparations they have to get ready before they ctb and someone else said something about 'is there anyone or anything depending on you?' something along those lines, got me thinking:
What/who depends on me?
I'm going to be giving up my kid by October, and I don't want to kms until then or after then anyway, so not him
I don't have parents
I don't really have friends
I don't have a job
Only my partner and he'd be fine without me. He'd be sad for a while, yeah, but he'd go back to art and he'd be fine.
Don't really think anyone would actually notice tbh.
 
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LogicalConclusion

LogicalConclusion

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Jun 2, 2019
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If anything, I'm the dependent one as I'm disabled and can't take care of myself on my own. The only ones depending on me are my dog and cat and I do my best for them, but I'm making plans for them for when I ctb and I think ultimately they'll be happier. I feel guilty for having thoughts of "trying for a month or so more" or just enjoying myself before I ctb because I know they would be happier somewhere else, but it would be suspicious for me to rehome them as I, again, rather depend on them. Overall, I feel entirely selfish and don't want to be a burden on anyone anymore and I think people won't be surprised and will continue their lives much the same as before.
 
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Rukia

Rukia

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Jun 3, 2019
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If anything, I'm the dependent one as I'm disabled and can't take care of myself on my own. The only ones depending on me are my dog and cat and I do my best for them, but I'm making plans for them for when I ctb and I think ultimately they'll be happier. I feel guilty for having thoughts of "trying for a month or so more" or just enjoying myself before I ctb because I know they would be happier somewhere else, but it would be suspicious for me to rehome them as I, again, rather depend on them. Overall, I feel entirely selfish and don't want to be a burden on anyone anymore and I think people won't be surprised and will continue their lives much the same as before.
I wont...@LogicalConculsion and you are not a burden :hug:
@123die you have a partner, so more than many ppl...:hug:
 
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