Decided to hang myself today

[Thisgirlwantstosleep]

You guys are probably sick of seeing my username at this point. I keep changing my mind out of fear and a lack of access although the method that I've chosen now will probably hurt like hell. I originally wanted to do SN but that's not coming for now and I need to leave today.

I literally cannot cope with my current living situation and I'll probably end up starving to death anyway because of it.

I'm doing a short drop, full suspension from a hook on the back of my door. I'm only 53 kg or 118lbs so it should be fine. The thing I'm worried about is pain and possibly being found before I die. I can't really do partial suspension because I don't have anything long enough right now unless I cut up some clothes, and I can never get it to work for me.

Any tips on how to make this go quick and easily is much welcomed.

 

[Ksab]

Any tips on how to make this go quick and easily is much welcomed

I don't have any idea how to make things easier for Full, since I've only tried Partial.
But I hope you get whatever you are seeking.
Best regard and Good luck.
Changing your mind is OK too if you want.
(Sorry for the bad English though)

 

[MsPotts]

I dont have my tips either, but I hope everything goes well for you and you find what you're looking for.

 

[Thebuddhacel]

I hope you find peace bro.

 

[Sensei]

May I ask, what makes you need to leave today?

 

[Bob_Luman]

I hope you find peace friend. I too worry a bit on what others on this forum might think, as I have posted so many threads and change my mind all the time with what method I want to look into. With whatever choice you choose I hope your problems get resolved. Not to cause worry but like any method nobody can guarantee it being painless. The truth of the matter is even natural causes of death lead to discomfort because you are dying. If done right usually the discomfort and slight pain shouldn't be too long but just think long and hard beforehand and double make sure you know what you're doing.

 

[Notabadguy]

I hope you are completely sure of your choice, and I hope you know what you are doing regarding your method. If you choose to go, please don't fail (it could be worse).

Peace, whatever your choice.

 

[Quinlor]

Good luck man!

 

[Queer_Kenny]

Your second concern, being found before you're dead, is my Achillies heal and the reason my last suicide attempt failed. As for your choice, I really can't offer any tips. But, as my last attempt was by a full suspension hanging, and this was my experience, I didn't feel any pain, except for an extremely sore neck when I regained consciousness in ICU the next day. It's really hard for me to explain why, as I actually found hanging gave me a weirdly euphoric feeling before I passed out. Whatever you do, good luck!

 

[Notabadguy]

Queer_Kenny, can I ask what went wrong in your failed attempt?

 

[Queer_Kenny]

Queer_Kenny, can I ask what went wrong in your failed attempt?

Sadly, I was found by a neighbour in the next apartment who heard a bang as my chair tipped over. She got nosey and called the super to check and see what it was. They found me hanging from a doorframe with my feet off the floor. That was at the end of last October.

 

[Quinlor]

Last year my father catch me trying hanging myself... he only said: try to not break your neck! because if you don't dying I will have to take care of you until the end of my fuck life!

That's it...

 

[teddybear1403]

peace on your decision

 

[Pan]

Your choice of method was my original choice, but I am now a convert to the charcoal method

 

[muffin222]

I'm so sorry things have become so unbearable for you. I wish you so much peace with whatever you decide to do

 

[Worndown]

It is a big step. Wanting to do it when you make the post does not mean you will want it as much when it is time to step off the stool. Lets hope she finds another solution.

 

[Sensei]

Why people always say they going to suicide but you always ended up seeing they in the forum others days?

It almost sounds as if you're annoyed that they're alive.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Why people always say they going to suicide but you always ended up seeing they in the forum others days?

Because someone stuck in between, some are not ready, some feel suicidal but not always.
You say like it is something shameful

 

[Sensei]

Why you look so pale? Are you aight?

I must say that you give off very trollish vibes.

 

[Vault of Memories]

I must say that you give off very trollish vibes.

Definitely getting those vibes too. That comment wasn't necessary at all, especially in a forum like this.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

What is wrong with worry about people in this website?

life is a troll with me.

You're blaming everyone else for their healthy responses to your juvenile, trollish behavior. This is why I asked how old you are, because you act like a 13-year-old troll.

If you value the site and all it has to offer, then perhaps you'll pay attention to how others here act as an example and make some effort to get along. If you keep acting like a troll, you'll quickly get banned, and no one will be sorry to see you go, even if you are suicidal and need support. So far you don't act like you need support, you just poke at people.

 

[Ougizh]

You're blaming everyone else for their healthy responses to your juvenile, trollish behavior. This is why I asked how old you are, because you act like a 13-year-old troll.

If you value the site and all it has to offer, then perhaps you'll pay attention to how others here act as an example and make some effort to get along. If you keep acting like a troll, you'll quickly get banned, and now one will be sorry to see you go, even if you are suicidal and need support. So far you don't act like you need support, you just poke at people.

Damn I feel more alone now, you break me in two, I just wanna talk before this pills take me away, maybe I'm just wake again without successfully kill me, sorry for my behavior I'm just not a good person just a weirdo shit when i take pills, i can manage my behavior if you want.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Damn I feel more alone now, you break me in two, I just wanna talk before this pills take me away, maybe I'm just wake again without successfully kill me, sorry for my behavior I'm just not a good person just a weirdo shit when i take pills, i can manage my behavior if you want.

Too often I have seen people turn around and play the victim when someone calls them on their bad behavior. It's one of many turn-around techniques I've seen you use today. I feel no guilt for being direct and honest with you.

I'm not responsible for you. If you find it beneficial to manage your behavior, then do it for your own benefit. People will treat you quite nicely here when you treat them with respect and compassion.

 

[Ougizh]

Too often I have seen people turn around and play the victim when someone calls them on their bad behavior. It's one of many turn-around techniques I've seen you use today. I feel no guilt for being direct and honest with you.

I'm not responsible for you. If you find it beneficial to manage your behavior, then do it for your own benefit. People will treat you quite nicely here when you treat them with respect and compassion.

I'm just saying I'm stupid aight? Maybe I was a dick, but what you expect from a forum come with bad thoughts in his heads? No much sane persons, and maybe my way I treating people is not how you are raised, I'm from Colombia and believe me, people here make jokes all the time and have a way of socially more hot than other countries can find ofennsely, again sorry. How old are you?

 

[Puppy]

I am sorry for not having anything helpful to say but I just want to make it clear none of us will ever be tired of seeing your username. It's the opposite; I am very happy to see you posting. I hope you're doing as okay as you can be.