nonexistance
Member
- Jun 16, 2018
- 40
My risk aversion is decreasing proportionally with days passing by.
I never smoked a cigarette in my life. As an engineer, I considered all sorts of corner case failures. I had doctors check every mole on my body to make sure I'm fine. I flossed after every meal. I changed costly car parts before they were broken "just in case". I check to see if the door is locked multiple times, although there's a security camera outside.
I can't go on overthinking when it comes to suicide. I am getting nowhere. I need to take the risk. I need to die.
I am now considering decapitation by car. No, I am NOT the kind of person who cares what is left behind. Basically I rent a fast car, buy a long, strong rope, tie one end to some tree or something stable and the other end around by neck and then just accelerate. There are successful reported cases of this method. The adrenaline and pleasure of driving might smooth things out for me. A good song maybe as well.
And if I fail.. oh well.. the irony! I'm so tired.
I never smoked a cigarette in my life. As an engineer, I considered all sorts of corner case failures. I had doctors check every mole on my body to make sure I'm fine. I flossed after every meal. I changed costly car parts before they were broken "just in case". I check to see if the door is locked multiple times, although there's a security camera outside.
I can't go on overthinking when it comes to suicide. I am getting nowhere. I need to take the risk. I need to die.
I am now considering decapitation by car. No, I am NOT the kind of person who cares what is left behind. Basically I rent a fast car, buy a long, strong rope, tie one end to some tree or something stable and the other end around by neck and then just accelerate. There are successful reported cases of this method. The adrenaline and pleasure of driving might smooth things out for me. A good song maybe as well.
And if I fail.. oh well.. the irony! I'm so tired.