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[voool]

I recently lost my cousin to an inadvertent heroin overdose(2 days ago) and I was planning to kill myself with heroin next week which is when the funeral is. Should I wait a month or so or just go ahead with my planned date.

 

[Threads]

We cannot decide that for you. You must make that decision on your own.

If you take your life now, your family will have two people to bury. It'll be more difficult.

 

[voool]

We cannot decide that for you. You must make that decision on your own.

If you take your life now, your family will have two people to bury. It'll be more difficult.

It's just that I was at the end of my rope physically due to illness. In a sense I feel guilty. Had I killed myself with heroin earlier it might have scared the father of two straight.

 

[worldexploder]

Well that is completely up to you. Personally if I had a date set like that I wouldn't change it. But that is just me. I respect any choice you make.

 

[voool]

Well that is completely up to you. Personally if I had a date set like that I wouldn't change it. But that is just me. I respect any choice you make.

I know I can get up and drive to a hotel any day Monday through Friday. But once I do I have to do it. Either that or start using to cope

 

[Smilla]

My two lousy cents is that I would wait.

Not to mention the holidays are here.

Am sorry for your pain, it sucks.

 

[voool]

My two lousy cents is that I would wait.

Not to mention the holidays are here.

Am sorry for your pain, it sucks.

Oh God this sucks.

 

[Smilla]

Oh God this sucks.

Yes it does. If possible try to hang on another month.

But nobody will judge you here for checking out earlier, I would just try to be mindful of the impact a suicide will have around the holidays.

Dec 6th was my target date but I've since pushed it into January for holiday and other reasons.

 

[voool]

Yes it does. If possible try to hang on another month.

But nobody will judge you here for checking out earlier, I would just try to be mindful of the impact a suicide will have around the holidays.

Dec 6th was my target date but I've since pushed it into January for holiday and other reasons.

I'll do it in January I suppose.

 

[HannibalLector]

I recently lost my cousin to an inadvertent heroin overdose(2 days ago) and I was planning to kill myself with heroin next week which is when the funeral is. Should I wait a month or so or just go ahead with my planned date.

My deepest condolences. Voool, you must be in a great deal of pain when the date is your main concern. If you need someone to talk to you can pm me.

 

[TiredHorse]

I recently lost my cousin to an inadvertent heroin overdose(2 days ago) and I was planning to kill myself with heroin next week which is when the funeral is. Should I wait a month or so or just go ahead with my planned date.

Damn. That's a tough decision.

As Threads says, that's a choice only you can make. The one thing that came to my mind is to not ctb on a synchronous date. For instance, if your cousin died on the 29th, don't ctb on the 29th of the next month, or your family might come to dread the 29th of every month. Humans are very good at seeing patterns even where there are none intended, and as traumatic as the experience will be to lose two family members so close on each other's heels, that might be a difficult pattern for them to not see.

For example, my school roommate ctb off the GGBridge two Octobers after we had graduated. A mutual friend was the first to hear, and passed the word to the rest of our cadre. The following October, another of our group ctb with his head in a bag (huffed glue until he passed out, to defeat the hypercapnic response). The same mutual friend was again the first to hear and to pass the word to the rest of us. The next October after that, that mutual friend was a proper mess, waiting to hear which of use was going to ctb that year. It took him a couple years to not dread October.

 

[Trashcan]

If you can hang on, great. But no one on here will judge you if you can't wait.