I recently lost my cousin to an inadvertent heroin overdose(2 days ago) and I was planning to kill myself with heroin next week which is when the funeral is. Should I wait a month or so or just go ahead with my planned date.
Damn. That's a tough decision.
As Threads says, that's a choice only you can make. The one thing that came to my mind is to not ctb on a synchronous date. For instance, if your cousin died on the 29th, don't ctb on the 29th of the next month, or your family might come to dread the 29th of
every month. Humans are very good at seeing patterns even where there are none intended, and as traumatic as the experience will be to lose two family members so close on each other's heels, that might be a difficult pattern for them to
not see.
For example, my school roommate ctb off the GGBridge two Octobers after we had graduated. A mutual friend was the first to hear, and passed the word to the rest of our cadre. The following October, another of our group ctb with his head in a bag (huffed glue until he passed out, to defeat the hypercapnic response). The same mutual friend was again the first to hear and to pass the word to the rest of us. The next October after that, that mutual friend was a proper mess, waiting to hear which of use was going to ctb that year. It took him a couple years to not dread October.
