Death is the road to awe

[V0latile]

Anyone else plan to jump from a bridge? I've had a particular bridge in mind for a year. I'm thinking of taking an Uber to it since my car was destroyed by a tweaker piece of shit!!!! (HBUH - Hell be upon him) The place is hours away. I wonder if Uber goes that far lol

 

[RedAlert]

Are you afraid of heights?

 

[V0latile]

Are you afraid of heights?

Yes. This bridge is hundreds of feet high too. Since it's my method I sometimes ask myself, "Is my current situation worse than jumping off a bridge?" Then the dread creeps in and I stay in my metaphorical prison.

 

[RedAlert]

What is your current situation if you don't mind me asking?

 

[V0latile]

A lifetime of various mental illnesses sprung from the misery of childhood abuse that only get worse as time goes on. No solid relationships of any kind really. Can't work because of the mental illnesses. Life is just a living death at this point. It's really a shame.

Edit: have done years of therapy with different therapists and medication. It didn't help.

 

[Mr2005]

The fountain was a great movie. I've had my eye on a bridge for some time.

 

[RedAlert]

Yeah your in a world of pain if you can't work. So i'm guessing you have tried hospitalisation already?

 

[V0latile]

Yeah your in a world of pain if you can't work. So i'm guessing you have tried hospitalisation already?

I don't see how being locked up with other mentally ill people would help me.

 

[RedAlert]

I don't see how being locked up with other mentally ill people would help me.

Its more of a distraction than anything. You would be surprised how just being around other people who struggle with the same things as you can lift you up a little. Some hospital programs are different anyway. Might aswell give it a shot...besides you have doubts about jumping the bridge and if you have doubts like that, the chances of failure is high. Just being realistic here

 

[V0latile]

Its more of a distraction than anything. You would be surprised how just being around other people who struggle with the same things as you can lift you up a little. Some hospital programs are different anyway. Might aswell give it a shot...besides you have doubts about jumping the bridge and if you have doubts like that, the chances of failure is high. Just being realistic here

Lol the bridge is so high there's no chance of failure.

 

[RedAlert]

Lol the bridge is so high there's no chance of failure.

i mean not even going through with it.

 

[V0latile]

i mean not even going through with it.

Maybe if I go at it sprinting with no time for second thoughts.