Death is comforting to me

[FuneralCry]

The thought of death comforts me. I believe there is nothing after this life. I won't have to experience the sensation of being conscious, no more thoughts, no more feelings, no more mortal concerns to deal with. Instead I will have permanent peace. Once we lose consciousness, everything we knew about this life is gone. It is like being set free from a prison. As humans we spend so much time at war with ourselves. It is a surreal feeling, thinking how the world will continue to function and move on, yet I won't be in it. My existence contributes nothing to this world, yes people will be sad but that is it.

I see suicide as gaining control over a life we never asked for. I have always liked the idea of choosing when I die, this is preferable to dying in some sort of accident, where we have no chance to make peace with leaving. There is so much dread in a future living in this world, my health problems can easily get worse, my body already aches at such a young age. There is no limit as to how bad it can get. Our death is the one thing we have the ability to choose.

Yet these views are seen as irrational in a society that puts emphasis on old age. That is my nightmare. I want to be young forever which can only be achieved by dying young. I think I see this life for what it really is, just meaningless. Our only purpose is to die. Many other people are so wrapped up in their lives they do not think about this. I wish I could have some acceptance in my desire to no longer exist. No more being told 'it gets better', no I do not want to change my thoughts. They are rational. Maybe it would make life a little bit less unbearable if we had an peaceful way out just in case things got too bad.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, same here!
Thinking about death is really comforting for me!!

Some people are scared of a hellish afterlife. I'm not because we're already living in a hell so, if there's another one coming, I'll just ctb there too lol.

However, I think there's either eternal nothingness or we'll simply be logged out from this simulation and understand what the hell we were really doing here.

 

[ClownMe]

Some people are scared of a hellish afterlife. I'm not because we're already living in a hell

this is how I feel as well.

 

[Pen>Sword]

Same here, dude. I didn't sign up for this crazy life. As someone said before life is too expensive, and I'm not even having fun. I want a refund.

 

[puppet_nihilist]

There is no limit as to how bad it can get.

I hate how true this is and how much I relate to it :(

Our death is the one thing we have the ability to choose.

But at least we got this. It's still difficult, but it's the only gateway to eternal peace.

 

[heretogethelp]

The thought of death comforts me. I believe there is nothing after this life. I won't have to experience the sensation of being conscious, no more thoughts, no more feelings, no more mortal concerns to deal with. Instead I will have permanent peace. Once we lose consciousness, everything we knew about this life is gone. It is like being set free from a prison. As humans we spend so much time at war with ourselves. It is a surreal feeling, thinking how the world will continue to function and move on, yet I won't be in it. My existence contributes nothing to this world, yes people will be sad but that is it.

I see suicide as gaining control over a life we never asked for. I have always liked the idea of choosing when I die, this is preferable to dying in some sort of accident, where we have no chance to make peace with leaving. There is so much dread in a future living in this world, my health problems can easily get worse, my body already aches at such a young age. There is no limit as to how bad it can get. Our death is the one thing we have the ability to choose.

Yet these views are seen as irrational in a society that puts emphasis on old age. That is my nightmare. I want to be young forever which can only be achieved by dying young. I think I see this life for what it really is, just meaningless. Our only purpose is to die. Many other people are so wrapped up in their lives they do not think about this. I wish I could have some acceptance in my desire to no longer exist. No more being told 'it gets better', no I do not want to change my thoughts. They are rational. Maybe it would make life a little bit less unbearable if we had an peaceful way out just in case things got too bad.

Death is comforting to a lot of ppl on SS, you aren't alone.

 

[BottomlessPit]

There is no limit as to how bad it can get.

Exactly. Just take a look at history and you will know how much suffering a human being is capable of. There are so many possibilities of pain, and they are all made possible by the fact that we exist. I consider my birth to be a mistake, a mistake that I can reverse by taking my own life.

Yes people will be sad for some time after I'm gone, but is it really me who is responsible for that? Or is it my parents who brought me into existence in the first place, knowing fully well that it would lead to pain, misery, and loss at some point.

 

[Deleted member 8579]

Some people are scared of a hellish afterlife. I'm not because we're already living in a hell.

The House of Judgement [abridged]
And there was silence in the House of Judgment, and the Man came naked before God.
[...]
And God closed the Book of the Life of the Man, and said, `Surely I will send thee into Hell. Even into Hell will I send thee.'
And the Man cried out, `Thou canst not.'
And God said to the Man, `Wherefore can I not send thee to Hell, and for what reason?'
`Because in Hell have I always lived,' answered the Man.
And after a space God spake, and said to the Man, `Seeing that I may not send thee into Hell, surely I will send thee unto Heaven.
Even unto Heaven will I send thee.'
And the Man cried out, `Thou canst not.'
And God said to the Man, `Wherefore can I not send thee unto Heaven, and for what reason?'
`Because never, and in no place, have I been able to imagine it,' answered the Man.
And there was silence in the House of Judgment.

-Oscar Wilde

 

[Red]

I too find the thought of death very comforting! The thought of taking my own life still fills me with terror but I am soothed by the idea that one day, the choice will me taken from me and no matter what I do, there will at least be a permanent end at some point.

Like many others here, my main wish is for that choice to be revoked sooner than old age; that my mysterious illness turns out to be fatal and that the end comes swiftly and requires no effort. It couldn't come quick enough; if it happens tomorrow, so be it.

Not nearly as afraid of death than I am of life. No fear of hell for as someone already said, this life is hellish enough.

 

[scarletohara]

The thought of death comforts me. I believe there is nothing after this life. I won't have to experience the sensation of being conscious, no more thoughts, no more feelings, no more mortal concerns to deal with. Instead I will have permanent peace. Once we lose consciousness, everything we knew about this life is gone. It is like being set free from a prison. As humans we spend so much time at war with ourselves. It is a surreal feeling, thinking how the world will continue to function and move on, yet I won't be in it. My existence contributes nothing to this world, yes people will be sad but that is it.

I see suicide as gaining control over a life we never asked for. I have always liked the idea of choosing when I die, this is preferable to dying in some sort of accident, where we have no chance to make peace with leaving. There is so much dread in a future living in this world, my health problems can easily get worse, my body already aches at such a young age. There is no limit as to how bad it can get. Our death is the one thing we have the ability to choose.

Yet these views are seen as irrational in a society that puts emphasis on old age. That is my nightmare. I want to be young forever which can only be achieved by dying young. I think I see this life for what it really is, just meaningless. Our only purpose is to die. Many other people are so wrapped up in their lives they do not think about this. I wish I could have some acceptance in my desire to no longer exist. No more being told 'it gets better', no I do not want to change my thoughts. They are rational. Maybe it would make life a little bit less unbearable if we had an peaceful way out just in case things got too bad.

every word u have written is exactly how i feel. i just want peace, im done with this life, ive suffered enough and im perfectly rational. i just dont want to fail my ctb this time. its such a relief to have this site to turn to

 

[Beachedwhale]

Same here, dude. I didn't sign up for this crazy life. As someone said before life is too expensive, and I'm not even having fun. I want a refund.

Can I please speak to the manager? Yes the one in the sky?

 

[NormaJeane]

The thought of death comforts me. I believe there is nothing after this life. I won't have to experience the sensation of being conscious, no more thoughts, no more feelings, no more mortal concerns to deal with. Instead I will have permanent peace. Once we lose consciousness, everything we knew about this life is gone. It is like being set free from a prison. As humans we spend so much time at war with ourselves. It is a surreal feeling, thinking how the world will continue to function and move on, yet I won't be in it. My existence contributes nothing to this world, yes people will be sad but that is it.

I see suicide as gaining control over a life we never asked for. I have always liked the idea of choosing when I die, this is preferable to dying in some sort of accident, where we have no chance to make peace with leaving. There is so much dread in a future living in this world, my health problems can easily get worse, my body already aches at such a young age. There is no limit as to how bad it can get. Our death is the one thing we have the ability to choose.

Yet these views are seen as irrational in a society that puts emphasis on old age. That is my nightmare. I want to be young forever which can only be achieved by dying young. I think I see this life for what it really is, just meaningless. Our only purpose is to die. Many other people are so wrapped up in their lives they do not think about this. I wish I could have some acceptance in my desire to no longer exist. No more being told 'it gets better', no I do not want to change my thoughts. They are rational. Maybe it would make life a little bit less unbearable if we had an peaceful way out just in case things got too bad.

Yes, suicide is gaining control over a life we never asked for and no one should force someone else to live. I always wanted to die before I get old, to be old is the worst thing that can happen to a person. My relatives try to force me to be 100 years old, but I just want to avoid years of meaningless suffering. I see old people almost everywhere in society, I have neighbors who are so old that they are crooked and handicapped - they can not go up the stairs to their apartment, but they refuse to move to a retirement home.