
selfeater
it’s my fault for being me
- Jan 11, 2024
- 14
I used to love drawing and art but now I can't I guess… I quit my art classes and ghosted my art teacher. I miss her and the classes. I tore up all my all pieces. I tore those up. I've been really struggling these past two weeks. I want to CTB with the SN I've had for half a year but I doubt I'm in enough pain to go through with it and I don't want to hurt my mom. I'll chicken out at the last minute because that's what I've always done- it's easier to go eat McDonalds and take a nap than go through with it lol. I miss art but I don't think I can practice it with enjoyment right now. But I made some doodles when I was struggling a while ago.
This first one I made I was feeling depressed and down.
Can you spot all the suicide methods??? : D Lmao
The second one I made when I was in a mood I get a bunch this kind of incessant seething self-hatred. I'm too scared to self harm so during these moods I like to imagine abusing myself like stabbing myself again and again choking myself stomping my throat until its mush I like the guy on the bottom right
This first one I made I was feeling depressed and down.
Can you spot all the suicide methods??? : D Lmao

The second one I made when I was in a mood I get a bunch this kind of incessant seething self-hatred. I'm too scared to self harm so during these moods I like to imagine abusing myself like stabbing myself again and again choking myself stomping my throat until its mush I like the guy on the bottom right
