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Papadragon
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- Aug 23, 2018
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Wrapped the rope around me, with the knot on the left side, didn't even have to tie it to anything, just tightened it around me, my vision became splotchy, and I almost fell asleep. But I knew I'd die so I took it off since I'm not doing it right this second. But when I felt myself going out, I didn't see flashbacks of my life, nor did I feel shame or hate or negativity. I felt curiosity, and this sense of adventure about what's outside this bubble of a world we live in. And I think this may be true for all of us, that our experiences and depression and lack of finding meaning and value in anything, make us give up on existing here, but behind the pain, there is a curiosity and sense of adventure that comes from being let down and wanting more, and maybe, just maybe, death is the doorway to something incredible, and life is pushing us in that direction.