DeathBecomesHer ☠
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- Sep 27, 2020
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Dear Black Void, Dark Abyss of my mind,
I am new here. Well, I've been a lurking for a couple weeks and decided to bite the bullet and make an account. This website brings me so much comfort. To see all these people communicating about a very "taboo" topic, openly and without judgment has brought me so much peace in the depths of my misery. I have tried... tried talking about it but I'm tired. I'm tired of existing. I'm only existing at this point for my family, but as selfish as it may sound, I didn't ask for this life. I have a beautiful life actually. That is the saddest part of all. I would be leaving behind so many that would be traumatized. I've seem the horror in their eyes after several failed suicide attempts. I saw the horror in their eyes when I was hit by the car and ran over... despite the miracle of only a concussion and minor injuries, I couldn't help but cry and wished I had died. Despite that our house is paid off COMPLETELY because of it, I still can't help but wish I had died. What is wrong with me???
I am new here. Well, I've been a lurking for a couple weeks and decided to bite the bullet and make an account. This website brings me so much comfort. To see all these people communicating about a very "taboo" topic, openly and without judgment has brought me so much peace in the depths of my misery. I have tried... tried talking about it but I'm tired. I'm tired of existing. I'm only existing at this point for my family, but as selfish as it may sound, I didn't ask for this life. I have a beautiful life actually. That is the saddest part of all. I would be leaving behind so many that would be traumatized. I've seem the horror in their eyes after several failed suicide attempts. I saw the horror in their eyes when I was hit by the car and ran over... despite the miracle of only a concussion and minor injuries, I couldn't help but cry and wished I had died. Despite that our house is paid off COMPLETELY because of it, I still can't help but wish I had died. What is wrong with me???
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