catsarecool
Remember me for me, I need to set my spirit free
- Jul 2, 2020
- 95
I had a friend tell me today that he's glad I'm around. I think this is one of the worst times for me to hear this. I've already made my mind to CTB and I'm at peace with it, but I'd be lying if I'd say I don't feel somewhat sad. I wish I was a better, happier person who could just keep going for other people. But I'm not. And even though I know this will hurt the people I care about the most, it doesn't change my decision. I wish I could say goodbye to them properly and let them know that I'll be going, but for obvious reasons I won't be able to until after CTB. I wish I could just erase myself from people's memories as it would make things a lot easier.