tiredplant777
Student
- Jul 23, 2021
- 196
I went on a trip with my friend recently who relapsed into using hard drugs for the first time since I've known him. It's fucking sad and it fucking sucks. I don't mean this to shame anyone but the overwhelming feelings I feel about this are anger and grief. He didn't do drugs on the trip but he got too drunk for us to explore more where we were. I'm really sorry if this offends anyone also. I understand addiction comes from a place of trauma and disconnection and it's a really hard battle. But yeah I am just really struggling with it and it was so hard trying to manage how I felt about it the whole time, a lot of feelings of disappointment and also grief because he is so different in a lot of ways to when I knew him before and when he was sober. As someone who has a lot of trauma and as someone who has been pushed to the edge it's just hard to deal with because It feels like it's pushing me even further. I hope he gets better it's just so hard to see.