Anxieyote
Sobriety over everything else • 30 • Midwest
- Mar 24, 2021
- 445
My relationship with dating apps is…strange. I have never felt comfortable with the initial interactions, and meetings have been awkward.
One time I met up with a guy that I couldn't get past his looks, and I left in a hurry saying, "I'm sorry" over and over again as he begged me to stay.
I'm horny at night, but most of those feelings go away during the day. Not to mention a lot of people on these apps are desperate and not very good-looking. And hey, neither am I, so I guess it is a place for the bottom-of-the-barrels to go.
And the paranoia gets bad too, when you've disconnected or deleted your profile, and wonder if anyone in town saw it, or if you gave your location away to the wrong person. I had someone say they were going to "find me" one time when I wouldn't give them my location, and I was scared to leave my apartment for several weeks.
I put the line out there again last night, and it felt good to have people reaching out, but these are horny motherfuckers who didn't even see a face pic, you know? And then in the morning, I realize I've been talking to these desperate people in their 40's and 50's, and I feel gross. Yes, they want me because they want ANYBODY. They call me "cute" without even seeing a pic…it feels manipulative.
Im really lonely, and I want to have someone come over to the apartment and keep me company. Is this the way to do it? Does anyone else have any suggestions? It's not even the sex I crave so much as just someone to keep me company. Do I just have to make that clear on the app?
One time I met up with a guy that I couldn't get past his looks, and I left in a hurry saying, "I'm sorry" over and over again as he begged me to stay.
I'm horny at night, but most of those feelings go away during the day. Not to mention a lot of people on these apps are desperate and not very good-looking. And hey, neither am I, so I guess it is a place for the bottom-of-the-barrels to go.
And the paranoia gets bad too, when you've disconnected or deleted your profile, and wonder if anyone in town saw it, or if you gave your location away to the wrong person. I had someone say they were going to "find me" one time when I wouldn't give them my location, and I was scared to leave my apartment for several weeks.
I put the line out there again last night, and it felt good to have people reaching out, but these are horny motherfuckers who didn't even see a face pic, you know? And then in the morning, I realize I've been talking to these desperate people in their 40's and 50's, and I feel gross. Yes, they want me because they want ANYBODY. They call me "cute" without even seeing a pic…it feels manipulative.
Im really lonely, and I want to have someone come over to the apartment and keep me company. Is this the way to do it? Does anyone else have any suggestions? It's not even the sex I crave so much as just someone to keep me company. Do I just have to make that clear on the app?