Disclaimer: I guess I can't type a good response.
I suffer from considerable anhedonia, so there's not much that I take personal satisfaction from.
Anhedonia sucks...
Maybe "love" is a strong word. I'm not sure if I love my hobbies and I definitely don't love my work, for example. Yet, as long as I keep practicing and make an effort to act as if I did, it might just be enough to make people think I'm not that boring... is it worth it? Not sure.
You said there's not much that satisfies you. Not much doesn't equal nothing, right? Maybe explore it a bit.
And if you don't find anything, could you be passionate about not being able to? It seems to work for some artists...
It is probably true that I am attracted to emotionally unavailable people. I never want anyone who wants me back,
if such a thing is possible. Maybe there is no one for me.
What's so attractive about wanting someone who doesn't want you back?
I start: I fear rejection, but no more than I fear intimacy. If I keep chasing those who don't want me back, I get to avoid the latter. And if I don't even try, I get to avoid both. Very efficient!