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hiraeth
Jan 30, 2026
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Cyanide is one of the fastest ways to ctb, but also very painful. Death isnt always guaranteed, so combining it with other methods would ensure success:
-hanging
-jumping
-stabbing
-basically any method that is quick (so you dont feel the cyanide pain as much)

cyanide is probably one of the easier poisons to get your hands on, you can crush up apple seeds or apricot seeds, however you would need quite a few.

If you take a lethal amount, you probably wont be able to be saved because cyanide poisoning acts so fast. But if you dont have a lethal amount (depends on body weight and apple seed amygdalin content), you might not die but be in severe pain (and have a very damaged body afterward), which is why combining ctb methods when using cyanide method is a good idea to ensure success. For example, if you try to hang but something messes up or goes unexpectedly, you will still end up ctbing with cyanide. it is a great backup mechanism to take if you're unsure about the success of your main route of ctb. I wouldnt combine this method with SN because SN can take up to 30 minutes to work, and you would be in a lot of cyanide poisoning pain. Again, the best methods to combine with this are quicker ones.

Chemical process of it:

If you were to poison yourself with it, you would have to ingest it because the seeds don't actually contain cyanide. An enzyme in your body (beta-glucosidase) converts the amygdalin in the seeds to hydrogen cyanide in your body. Once this gets into the bloodstream, the hydrogen cyanide stops mitochondria in your cells from producing adenosine triphosphate (ATP), and your cells suffocate to death.

Apples with most amygdalin:
-golden delicious
-red delicious
-royal gala
-granny smith
-cosmic crisp (they have more seeds than most apples)

Cyanide poisoning is very painful, even though its quick. Symptoms of acute cyanide poisoning are:

-severe stomach ache/cramp
-shortness of breath
-vomiting
-nausea/dizziness
-headache
-rapid heart rate followed by super slowed heartrate
-skin reddening
-anxiety
-cyanide smelling breath
-seizures (really uncommon)
-coma before death



More details:

To get acute cyanide poisoning, you would need 200-400 apple seeds. So this is a good method if you're still wondering if you want to ctb, because collecting all those seeds would take a long time. Of course you could buy apple seeds on amazon or local plant nurseries in bulk. Also it is important that the seeds are crushed because the majority amygdalin content is on the inside of the seed. Contrary to popular belief, you wont die within seconds because your body needs to digest the amygdalin, but if you take the right amount its a death sentence. But i would still argue to combine it with other quick methods to ensure less pain and definite success.
 

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