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dontwantthislife

dontwantthislife

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Jan 28, 2019
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Howdy y'all

If you've ever floated around self harm websites you've probably seen my photos as I seem to be one of the deepest cutters online.

So I'm here to tell you why self harm/cutting is a shitty method for an inexperienced person, let alone someone like me.

Fast facts:
1. Don't even try cutting your wrist. Just don't. It's hard to bleed out from that artery.

2. You want to go for the femoral artery in the groin, or the carotid in your neck.

3. If you can hardly cut yourself now, this method ain't gonna be for you.

So I've attempted a femoral cut twice. Both times I cut through nerves, muscle & lymph nodes but missed the artery. The pain of cutting the nerves is EXCRUCIATING. I now have permanent nerve damage.

I tried to cut the carotid while locked up in a psych ward (where I snuck a razor in). Unfortunately I wasn't educated enough at the time and spent too long hacking away at the front of my neck, damaging the wind pipe and once again the nerves were excruciating. I was 4mm away from the carotid artery & had emergency surgery again on that.

So anyhoo, cutting is hard. Here are some photos of how deep you can cut and still not be anywhere near hitting something important.

If you are still interested in this method or want advice let me know!
 

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EmoIsNotAPhase

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I honestly think this is my method I bleed extremely easy and I tend to bleed a lot had close calls just cutting cause of depression not trying to die
What did you use in the pics?
 
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dontwantthislife

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I honestly think this is my method I bleed extremely easy and I tend to bleed a lot had close calls just cutting cause of depression not trying to die
What did you use in the pics?

I have taken blood thinners, drunk alcohol etc etc not come anywhere near dying despite hitting veins and having them spray out etc.

I use double edge razor blades - particularly feather blades that's my personal preference.
 
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Ayeitsalaska

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Can you message me i'd like to learn more about this method
 
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Ayeitsalaska

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where do you buy razors from? sorry dumb question
 
dontwantthislife

dontwantthislife

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where do you buy razors from? sorry dumb question

I am from Australia, so I walk in to a store we have here called Shaver Shop. $4.95 for a packet of 5. You can purchase them online or just google "double edged razors + where you live" and there are probably shaving stores that sell them.
 
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Ayeitsalaska

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i dont have any unfortunately. would they sell it at walmart? and isnt the cartoid artery not that difficult to get too?
 
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That's on your thigh?
 
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EmoIsNotAPhase

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I have taken blood thinners, drunk alcohol etc etc not come anywhere near dying despite hitting veins and having them spray out etc.

I use double edge razor blades - particularly feather blades that's my personal preference.
Actually I think I may have a mild blood disorder cause I passed out one time cold from pulling a baby tooth too soon and bleeding too much
How long about did that take? I'm actually fascinated by this method because of my history with self harm
 
SeekingSolace

SeekingSolace

‘The sleep of reason breeds monsters’ -Goya
Jan 28, 2019
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I don't have the guts to cut myself that deeply...have only cut myself a couple of times and only once that I should have gotten stitches. My self-harm comes out when I feel too overwhelmed...I'll end up punching my legs as hard as I can until I have purple welts later. It helps me release the extra energy and frustration I feel on a daily basis. I feel like a child when I lose my temper like that though.
 
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That's on your thigh?


Yes, here's an arm & my neck though. Unfortunately no photos of the neck cut as they had taken my phone away in the psych hospital.
 

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Yes, here's an arm & my neck though. Unfortunately no photos of the neck cut as they had taken my phone away in the psych hospital.

Oops forgot arm. Just a small one.
 

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Actually I think I may have a mild blood disorder cause I passed out one time cold from pulling a baby tooth too soon and bleeding too much
How long about did that take? I'm actually fascinated by this method because of my history with self harm


How long did what take? To do the cut? I used to take ages at them, like 40+ minutes. Now I just slash away and cut to muscle in 2 mins flat lol.
 
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dontwantthislife

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i dont have any unfortunately. would they sell it at walmart? and isnt the cartoid artery not that difficult to get too?

Not sure about Walmart!

Supposedly it's easy - I missed it by 4mm as I was cutting too much at the front of the neck and not the sides. Cutting the neck is quite hard though especially the deeper you get when the cut is even deeper than the razor so your fingers are IN your neck, slippery, blood everywhere. Bit of spraying from veins.
 
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creationisdeath

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Oct 20, 2018
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Howdy y'all

If you've ever floated around self harm websites you've probably seen my photos as I seem to be one of the deepest cutters online.

So I'm here to tell you why self harm/cutting is a shitty method for an inexperienced person, let alone someone like me.

Fast facts:
1. Don't even try cutting your wrist. Just don't. It's hard to bleed out from that artery.

2. You want to go for the femoral artery in the groin, or the carotid in your neck.

3. If you can hardly cut yourself now, this method ain't gonna be for you.

So I've attempted a femoral cut twice. Both times I cut through nerves, muscle & lymph nodes but missed the artery. The pain of cutting the nerves is EXCRUCIATING. I now have permanent nerve damage.

I tried to cut the carotid while locked up in a psych ward (where I snuck a razor in). Unfortunately I wasn't educated enough at the time and spent too long hacking away at the front of my neck, damaging the wind pipe and once again the nerves were excruciating. I was 4mm away from the carotid artery & had emergency surgery again on that.

So anyhoo, cutting is hard. Here are some photos of how deep you can cut and still not be anywhere near hitting something important.

If you are still interested in this method or want advice let me know!

I can confirm this. It doesn't work. I once thought about using a chainsaw, but that seems to be prone to survival instinct kicking in at the last second and "only" disabling you. Personally I never went too deep for this reason as I saw other people surviving. (often with lasting damage like you)

Tried blood thinners and it doesn't really do much. Surprisingly the most annoying non-stop bleeding to me is regular nosebleed. That bleeds so much more than expected, while cuts you think would just gush out slow down really quickly.

Some people can die from small cuts though. I think it's a medical condition.
 
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dontwantthislife

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Did you clean up before the pic? That didn't look like it bled a lot

Yep cleaned it up & that was about after 15 mins of pressure. Fat cuts don't actually bleed a lot! Not a good way to try and bleed out.
 
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creationisdeath

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Not sure about Walmart!

Supposedly it's easy - I missed it by 4mm as I was cutting too much at the front of the neck and not the sides. Cutting the neck is quite hard though especially the deeper you get when the cut is even deeper than the razor so your fingers are IN your neck, slippery, blood everywhere. Bit of spraying from veins.
Never thought of a scalpel? I don't want to encourage you though. This is really not a great option..
 
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EmoIsNotAPhase

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Jan 12, 2019
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Yep cleaned it up & that was about after 15 mins of pressure. Fat cuts don't actually bleed a lot! Not a good way to try and bleed out.
Mine were never that fat just half an inch to an inch and a half and I tend to do several
 
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Redt2go

Redt2go

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Jan 5, 2019
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Howdy y'all

If you've ever floated around self harm websites you've probably seen my photos as I seem to be one of the deepest cutters online.

So I'm here to tell you why self harm/cutting is a shitty method for an inexperienced person, let alone someone like me.

Fast facts:
1. Don't even try cutting your wrist. Just don't. It's hard to bleed out from that artery.

2. You want to go for the femoral artery in the groin, or the carotid in your neck.

3. If you can hardly cut yourself now, this method ain't gonna be for you.

So I've attempted a femoral cut twice. Both times I cut through nerves, muscle & lymph nodes but missed the artery. The pain of cutting the nerves is EXCRUCIATING. I now have permanent nerve damage.

I tried to cut the carotid while locked up in a psych ward (where I snuck a razor in). Unfortunately I wasn't educated enough at the time and spent too long hacking away at the front of my neck, damaging the wind pipe and once again the nerves were excruciating. I was 4mm away from the carotid artery & had emergency surgery again on that.

So anyhoo, cutting is hard. Here are some photos of how deep you can cut and still not be anywhere near hitting something important.

If you are still interested in this method or want advice let me know!
Wow this is so intense. Sorry you're in so much pain that you need to do this
 
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NoChoice

NoChoice

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Jan 28, 2019
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Brutal, with an odd beauty.. Do you enjoy it in any way or do you do it because you hate yourself?
 
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dontwantthislife

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Brutal, with an odd beauty.. Do you enjoy it in any way or do you do it because you hate yourself?

I enjoy it. It's the only thing in life I'm good at.
 
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Jan 27, 2019
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could you use a straight edge razor? the type you see in Barber shops.
 
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AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
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See, last night while trying to keep my mind occupied I had a sudden urge to slice my wrist open. Like I could picture it in my mind and watching the long gaping slice open up with blood spewing, I went to my stash of razors and almost attempted it. But since I've been through the whole cutting process before, I couldn't go through with it. It's a lot harder to get to the artery then people think. So I understand this because I have 2 big scars on my wrist from my last attempt.
 
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Ended up in the ER for the first time a week ago for self harm. I usually let them heal on their own but it wouldnt stop bleeding and I had to get stitches. Do you usually get them closed up?
 
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