Lilacmoon
Beautiful moon, take me away.
- Sep 23, 2020
- 1,308
I thought I was almost free. Now I have to keep waiting. I don't know what to do. My head is a mess. I just want to be free, I just want it to be over.
What do I do now? Hanging won't work because I'm stupid. SN can't come because I'm stupid. No gun because stupid Canada. Afraid of heights. But maybe I have to force it. Scary painful death. Drowning too. Also scary and painful. But worth it? Worth it for peace?
Sorry, this is rhetorical. No one could help anyways. I'm just letting off useless steam.
I love how, potentially, a nice peaceful end is being denied. Maybe this is nice sadistic fun for someone. Maybe someone's enjoying this.
What do I do now? Hanging won't work because I'm stupid. SN can't come because I'm stupid. No gun because stupid Canada. Afraid of heights. But maybe I have to force it. Scary painful death. Drowning too. Also scary and painful. But worth it? Worth it for peace?
Sorry, this is rhetorical. No one could help anyways. I'm just letting off useless steam.
I love how, potentially, a nice peaceful end is being denied. Maybe this is nice sadistic fun for someone. Maybe someone's enjoying this.