Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
I thought I was almost free. Now I have to keep waiting. I don't know what to do. My head is a mess. I just want to be free, I just want it to be over.

What do I do now? Hanging won't work because I'm stupid. SN can't come because I'm stupid. No gun because stupid Canada. Afraid of heights. But maybe I have to force it. Scary painful death. Drowning too. Also scary and painful. But worth it? Worth it for peace?

Sorry, this is rhetorical. No one could help anyways. I'm just letting off useless steam.

I love how, potentially, a nice peaceful end is being denied. Maybe this is nice sadistic fun for someone. Maybe someone's enjoying this.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Aww..
Reactions: Pen>Sword, darksideofthebright, DivineMedicus and 22 others
MiseryLovesMyCompany

MiseryLovesMyCompany

Arcanist
Oct 8, 2020
482
I'm sorry that it got seized, Canadian customs is not letting people go peacfully. The case is not lost completely though, well, except for that specific package of SN. :(
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Ghost2211, grungeCat and Lilacmoon
Silver

Silver

The 21st century is when everything changes
Aug 8, 2020
745
Could you order LW from USA?
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Ghost2211 and Lilacmoon
MiseryLovesMyCompany

MiseryLovesMyCompany

Arcanist
Oct 8, 2020
482
Could you order LW from USA?
That could be done using another company that ships things abroad.
Costly and still has to go through customs but might work.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Ghost2211, ronigail9 and Lilacmoon
Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
i dont know if i have the money for reshipping...
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: Ghost2211 and MiseryLovesMyCompany
Rue89

Rue89

Visionary
Feb 10, 2020
2,726
I'm sorry this happened to you. You're not stupid. The SN being stopped has nothing to do with you. It's stupid government denying people a peaceful/semi-peaceful death. It's so wrong, so unfair.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Ghost2211, Meditation guide, Lilacmoon and 2 others
Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
they sent me a letter.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Ghost2211
Breadbfra

Breadbfra

Specialist
Jul 16, 2020
374
Fuck i'm so sorry i'd give it mine if you were closer. Have you considered hallucinogen drugs to overcome heights? :/ not the best solution but it may work
 
  • Love
Reactions: Lilacmoon
C

Cakes

She/Her
Oct 25, 2020
363
notifying me that sn sale is restricted for individual sale so i would have to be a business. i dont think i'm in trouble except for i need to die.
Oh I'm sorry it's gotten taken away from you! *hugs*
 
  • Love
Reactions: Lilacmoon
Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
thanks for all the replies.
i dunno. i'll figure something out.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
Reactions: Ghost2211, Rn110bg101 and MiseryLovesMyCompany
grungeCat

grungeCat

Awkward & weird
Jul 5, 2020
1,110
I'm sorry it happened to you.
I don't know if it's a good idea for you but I did so and I don't regret. Did you inform your SN vendor that customs has stopped your package? My SN was also stopped by customs service and I complained about that to my vendor. He agreed to send it via another delivery company at his own cost and it did succeed! Now I have my own SN in my home ready to be used when it's The Right Time™. Maybe you can give it a try? It worked in my case so why shouldn't it do the trick in your one?
 
  • Like
  • Love
  • Hugs
Reactions: Ghost2211, demuic, foxdie and 4 others
Lilacmoon

Lilacmoon

Beautiful moon, take me away.
Sep 23, 2020
1,308
I'm sorry it happened to you.
I don't know if it's a good idea for you but I did so and I don't regret. Did you inform your SN vendor that customs has stopped your package? My SN was also stopped by customs service and I complained about that to my vendor. He agreed to send it via another delivery company and it did succeed! Now I have my own SN in my home ready to be used when it's The Right Time™. Maybe you can give it a try? It worked in my case so why shouldn't it do the trick in your one?
it worked for you? maybe I can try it then. i'll give it a shot, thank you.
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Ghost2211, demuic, Silver and 1 other person
grungeCat

grungeCat

Awkward & weird
Jul 5, 2020
1,110
it worked for you? maybe I can try it then. i'll give it a shot, thank you.
Yeah it worked! I mean it's not their duty to do so but hey, what can you possibly lose if they refuse? There's always a chance they will be kind enough! Good luck!
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: Meditation guide and Lilacmoon
MiseryLovesMyCompany

MiseryLovesMyCompany

Arcanist
Oct 8, 2020
482
They don't want bad reviews and there is already a huge profit on each package
 
  • Like
Reactions: KleinerWolf
F

foxdie

Got my ticket
Aug 18, 2020
1,011
Ugh this sucks, sorry mon ami. I'm from Canada too and this is one of the reasons I'm not considering SN. I hope the reshipping works out for you!
 
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: allym101 and Lilacmoon
allym101

allym101

Ally
May 29, 2020
276
I thought I was almost free. Now I have to keep waiting. I don't know what to do. My head is a mess. I just want to be free, I just want it to be over.

What do I do now? Hanging won't work because I'm stupid. SN can't come because I'm stupid. No gun because stupid Canada. Afraid of heights. But maybe I have to force it. Scary painful death. Drowning too. Also scary and painful. But worth it? Worth it for peace?

Sorry, this is rhetorical. No one could help anyways. I'm just letting off useless steam.

I love how, potentially, a nice peaceful end is being denied. Maybe this is nice sadistic fun for someone. Maybe someone's enjoying this.
Don't give up so easily. It might seem hard, but hey, where there's a will there's a way. You'll find your peace someday
 
  • Like
Reactions: Meditation guide
BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
Im gonna fight canadian customs -_-
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: Gnip, Meditation guide and Lilacmoon
S

Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,101
How much work would you have to do to register a business in Canada? Create a fictitious business name, pay the fees, and then have it shipped to your "business"
 
  • Like
Reactions: Gnip and BridgeJumper
BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
How much work would you have to do to register a business in Canada? Create a fictitious business name, pay the fees, and then have it shipped to your "business"

Hackermaster
 
S

sephlove

Member
Nov 22, 2020
82
I've been trying to get SN as well. No luck.

I've also been considering jumping. However, I'm also scared of heights lol. I don't know what other way there is but I'm going to keep looking.
 
G

Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,017
Sounds like SN is getting harder to get for a lot people. Sorry you're dealing with this. I hope you find a way around it. Everyone should be able to make their own choices.
 

Similar threads

JessIsAlive
Replies
0
Views
118
Suicide Discussion
JessIsAlive
JessIsAlive
Chronicallyunwell
Replies
5
Views
283
Suicide Discussion
qualityOV3Rquantity
qualityOV3Rquantity
echolocation
Replies
0
Views
104
Suicide Discussion
echolocation
echolocation
M
Replies
25
Views
878
Suicide Discussion
SomewhereAlongThe
SomewhereAlongThe