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agony1996
Student
- Jul 8, 2024
- 124
I feel like I've been cursed.,just when I say things can't possibly get any worse they do. I hate when people say when you're down things can only go up from her…
No they fucking can't
I'm suicidal, my birthday is in 4 days and my dog died yesterday. I'm in so much pain it's unimaginable. I can't stop crying.
I don't want to be here anymore how much more pain can a person take. I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up.
I want to ctb but of course with my luck there are so many obstacles, I don't want to hurt my mom, i don't want to leave my sister she'd never survive without me, I'm her everything and I'm afraid of the act of dying and what happens in that moment I imagine my myself not being able to breathe anymore and it freaks me out I also imagine myself in a coffin.
How am I suppose to ctb under these circumstances. I always ask myself why this is so fucking hard and I'm pretty sure the universe wants me to suffer, I think it enjoys watching me suffer and keeps adding more and more pain in my heart
No they fucking can't
I'm suicidal, my birthday is in 4 days and my dog died yesterday. I'm in so much pain it's unimaginable. I can't stop crying.
I don't want to be here anymore how much more pain can a person take. I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up.
I want to ctb but of course with my luck there are so many obstacles, I don't want to hurt my mom, i don't want to leave my sister she'd never survive without me, I'm her everything and I'm afraid of the act of dying and what happens in that moment I imagine my myself not being able to breathe anymore and it freaks me out I also imagine myself in a coffin.
How am I suppose to ctb under these circumstances. I always ask myself why this is so fucking hard and I'm pretty sure the universe wants me to suffer, I think it enjoys watching me suffer and keeps adding more and more pain in my heart