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aitouka

aitouka

calm
Apr 5, 2023
82
Right now I'm on a trip with my best friend and her whole family. It's happy, yes, and I have a good relationship with her entire family. But right now it's midnight and I hear them having family fun and I'm just so so jealous because I think of my family which is broken, neglecting and abusive. Yeah that's about it.
 
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NorthernMonkey

Student
Apr 6, 2023
120
I hear you. There is that old saying ... you can choose your friends but your family you're stuck with.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,814
Life really is so unnecessarily cruel and it's awful how humans create so much harm. The unfortunate reality is that there could never be anything fair about existing in a world where people suffer all through no fault of their own and I understand why you would feel so envious. But anyway, I wish you the best.
 
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Valky

Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
I feel this, but from the other pov. It wasn't always like that but now my family (especially my parents) are lovely. They are the best parents I could wish for. But I also feel incredibly bad for my friends that have a bad relationship with their parents or other negative situations. I wish my parents could adopt them all so they could feel real love of a parental figure and I always try to engage them with my parents so that maybe it makes them happier to realise that they are not the problem.

,,Every child deserves parents but not every parent deserves a child''
 
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aitouka

aitouka

calm
Apr 5, 2023
82
I feel this, but from the other pov. It wasn't always like that but now my family (especially my parents) are lovely. They are the best parents I could wish for. But I also feel incredibly bad for my friends that have a bad relationship with their parents or other negative situations. I wish my parents could adopt them all so they could feel real love of a parental figure and I always try to engage them with my parents so that maybe it makes them happier to realise that they are not the problem.

,,Every child deserves parents but not every parent deserves a child''
I feel like I'm already sort of 'adopted'. But I still cannot really fit into their family. After all, they are really tight-knitted. And it would bring trouble if I actually engage that much, and I don't want to disrupt their fun as well.
 
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Lok1_/./

Endless hope
Apr 5, 2023
16
I can relate. It's hard thing to think about. Been through a lot as a kid I guess being the eldest was the reason. I've always been feeling like the "outsider" in my family whereas everyone else gets along but with me it's just awkward. I just don't fit in at all however I try it's always in vain.

Sending you good vibes. Wish for the best.
 
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Valky

Valky

Petulant Child (this was written by dot and a lie)
Apr 4, 2023
1,351
I feel like I'm already sort of 'adopted'. But I still cannot really fit into their family. After all, they are really tight-knitted. And it would bring trouble if I actually engage that much, and I don't want to disrupt their fun as well.
I am very sure that you are not disrupting their fun. You are adding to it. Don't be afraid to engage with them. Families don't just take anyone on a trip with them. They enjoy your company!!
 
aitouka

aitouka

calm
Apr 5, 2023
82
I can relate. It's hard thing to think about. Been through a lot as a kid I guess being the eldest was the reason. I've always been feeling like the "outsider" in my family whereas everyone else gets along but with me it's just awkward. I just don't fit in at all however I try it's always in vain.

Sending you good vibes. Wish for the best.
Thank you. I hope you are better now.
I am very sure that you are not disrupting their fun. You are adding to it. Don't be afraid to engage with them. Families don't just take anyone on a trip with them. They enjoy your company!!
I'll try. It feels weird, as I am the only and actual outsider, and it feels so foreign to me that a family can have fun together.
 

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