Currently having anxiety over my future.

[Grassfed]

I am concerned about my future and my belief in god is wavering.

Little bit of context:
I come from a Muslim background, though am no longer Muslim, I do believe that god exists but don't believe in any particular religion and don't regularly practice my faith.

My family is attempting to get me forced married, even though I've shown that i don't want that, my family means a lot to me and it's the only thing keeping me afloat but with this, I'm starting to wonder if they care at all.

My parents were forced married and I see how that turned out and I want to reject it, alongside this, I've only just started my 20's and university and with my prior general anxiety disorder, it's all making me very concerned about my future to the point where ill have random anxiety attacks thinking about it.

It's all that I can think about as I do want to live out the rest of my life but if I'm gonna be forced into a future I'd rather just die. My belief in god is another thing that is keeping me from catching the bus and though I pray, I don't even know for sure if he listens.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do get that it's certainly dreadful thinking of what lies ahead, I find it horrible how there's unlimited potential for existing to get much more unbearable. But anyway best wishes.

 

[StaticCryBabye]

Hey there, I can see that you're grappling with some heavy issues. It's tough when you're torn between your beliefs, family expectations, and personal desires. Forced marriages are definitely not the way to go, and it's brave of you to resist that path. Your concerns about the future and anxiety attacks are valid, but remember that you have the power to shape your own destiny. As for your belief in God, it's okay to question and seek answers. Prayer can be a source of solace, but it's important to find inner strength as well. Stay strong and keep seeking what feels right for you. You deserve a future that aligns with your true self.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It is clear that your own parents are causing you pain and that results in anxiety because they want to force you into a marriage that you do not want. It's horrible to be forced into a future one does not want to live, but maybe you can try to talk to your parents, maybe they will understand one day.

I don't know which country you are living in, but I have an idea of the region, full of conservative ways of thinking making life hard for young people.

I wish you all the best and welcome to the forum.

 

[Solitudeseeker]

I am concerned about my future and my belief in god is wavering.

Little bit of context:
I come from a Muslim background, though am no longer Muslim, I do believe that god exists but don't believe in any particular religion and don't regularly practice my faith.

My family is attempting to get me forced married, even though I've shown that i don't want that, my family means a lot to me and it's the only thing keeping me afloat but with this, I'm starting to wonder if they care at all.

My parents were forced married and I see how that turned out and I want to reject it, alongside this, I've only just started my 20's and university and with my prior general anxiety disorder, it's all making me very concerned about my future to the point where ill have random anxiety attacks thinking about it.

It's all that I can think about as I do want to live out the rest of my life but if I'm gonna be forced into a future I'd rather just die. My belief in god is another thing that is keeping me from catching the bus and though I pray, I don't even know for sure if he listens.

hello my love <3 my father is muslim and i am an orthodox christian convert. <3 in this situation i would get on my own two feet through university and from that point free yourself <3 god creates the toughest wars for his strongest soldiers. if you ever need help with anything. please drop me a message <3

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry you are in this situation. You said you have 'shown' that you don't want an arranged marriage. May I ask- does that mean you've discussed it with your parents? Have you said- as respectfully as you can- that this is something you REALLY don't want to do and it's causing you so much distress? What was their response?

 

[Grassfed]

I'm so sorry you are in this situation. You said you have 'shown' that you don't want an arranged marriage. May I ask- does that mean you've discussed it with your parents? Have you said- as respectfully as you can- that this is something you REALLY don't want to do and it's causing you so much distress? What was their response?

Yes, I have but I do also try to avoid the conversation entirely after their initial response was negligent and them being stuck in their traditional ways. On top of that, all of my extended family is backing it, making it really difficult for me to avoid the inevitable.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I have but I do also try to avoid the conversation entirely after their initial response was negligent and them being stuck in their traditional ways. On top of that, all of my extended family is backing it, making it really difficult for me to avoid the inevitable.

I'm SO sorry. I just can't imagine what this is like. Do you have friends or anyone in a similar situation you can talk to? I feel like you need to speak to people who really understand. I suppose it just feels so alien to me that parents would expect this of their children- but I guess they just accept it is part of their tradition. Was your parents marriage arranged? Obviously- don't feel obliged to answer if that's too personal.