Ctb is another form of murdering somebody.you are a murderer if u ctb.u kill yourself.that is why it is so hard to do it.normal ppl dont go around murdering ppl unless they are forced.it takes a lot of courage too..
Edit: im not stopping ppl from killing themselves.i want to ctb too.im trying to explain why is it so hard to do it from my perspective
I cannot argue your logic. Yes; the willful unnecessary taking of a human life is called murder. So in taking a human life; your own or anyone else's places you under the designation of a murderer. And we have been taught all our lives to respect the sanctity of human life. Therefore you end up with the scenario you stated earlier; the need to terminate your own life is paramount to what should be the relief of the pain(s) that drives one to suicide.
I hold multiple degrees in the study of human behavior; aka psychology. The term that comes to mind from all those less than thrilling classroom hours is "Cognitive dissonance". Cognitive dissonance is a condition or state of mind in which a person with a long held belief(s) that are so ingrained that when presented with emprical evidence that disputes or puts that belief at risk of being proved false that they will engage in all types of activities that dispute the new evidence.
Such as the human who is in deep and sometimes debilitating pain from the way their lives have turned out for them and who know that ending their physical lives will likely bring relief but cannot bring themselves to complete the act because of that ingrained sanctity of human life.
I believe that what you are experiencing is a form of Cognitive Dissonance. I am not licensed and am probably not qualified to make a diagnosis but that conclusion seems logical to me.
On a side note; did you know a large group of crows is called a "Murder"?
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