divinemistress36
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,657
Anyone planning on ctb once their parent/parents die? It's hard to stick around for them when you are always severely suffering
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Namarupa
Student
- Jan 24, 2024
- 112
It's my goal. I think they're the only people who've ever expressed an ounce of genuine care for my well being in my entire life. Not like I have much choice, since I'm a NEET.
penguinl0v3s
Wait for Me 💙
- Nov 1, 2023
- 845
Fingers crossed. Life would get a lot harder without parents, and it's too hard already.
Tired_of_myself
Student
- Jan 2, 2024
- 131
That's exactly my plan. I think it's fair to leave without breaking my mother's heart. This plan gives me strength to continue, because I know that in the future I will be able to be free and decide how I want to leave this horrible world.
divinemistress36
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,657
Namarupa
Student
- Jan 24, 2024
- 112
Not in Education, Employment, or Training.
John-Doe
Member
- Jan 20, 2024
- 31
that was my plan briefly but i can't stick around for that long. they're in their 50s and healthy, for all i know they (or at least one of them) could have another 40-50 years in them. at that point i'd have pretty much lived an entire lifetime which is an unbearable thought.
divinemistress36
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,657
Im trying to wait but i think i won't be able to hold it back this spring.
astonishedturnip
Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
- Jan 16, 2024
- 260
Believe it or not, my parents' inevitable demise is a strong motivation to CTB. It sounds so trite when so many people on this forum struggled and survived through awful, abusive childhoods and terrible parents who caused their SI and who they wished were dead... But despite all their faults (I fought like cats and dogs with my mom until just a few years ago) my parents are amazing people who always took care of me and my siblings through our whole lives. Nobody will love me like they do and this relationship simply can't be replaced. Whatever shit happened in my day, it can always be made better by coming home and chatting with them. The idea of not only living through their decline/passing but having to live for possibly DECADES with the grief and pain of not seeing them again? And knowing that unlike other phobias/anxieties, this one is rooted entirely in inevitable fact and there's nothing I can do to stop it, prepare for it, or even predict when it will happen? Nah, fuck that. My friends put me on the back burner as soon as they got married or found cooler friends, no man will date or procreate with me (my dream) and my siblings will be fine after a few months. I'm not living without my parents.
I'm strongly considering CTB before either of them pass so I won't have to live through it, especially since 1) I'm THE biggest coward on the planet and 2) I love them both and waiting for them both to die means having to live with the grief of one passing until the other passes as well (unless they randomly both die together), but they deserve better than having to bury their baby girl, so I'm grudgingly trying to hold it off until they pass. Might be decades since they're both relatively young/healthy but you never know (which doesn't help my depression/anxiety that is also encouraging me to CTB), but I've had SI since I was in middle school and I've been patient this far.
I'm strongly considering CTB before either of them pass so I won't have to live through it, especially since 1) I'm THE biggest coward on the planet and 2) I love them both and waiting for them both to die means having to live with the grief of one passing until the other passes as well (unless they randomly both die together), but they deserve better than having to bury their baby girl, so I'm grudgingly trying to hold it off until they pass. Might be decades since they're both relatively young/healthy but you never know (which doesn't help my depression/anxiety that is also encouraging me to CTB), but I've had SI since I was in middle school and I've been patient this far.
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,017
I plan to ctb before my parents die. Ideally I'll ctb before I reach 25. I've always wanted to die young, I never even wanted to grow up or become an adult anyways. Getting old terrifies me, I would hate to have to get old.
divinemistress36
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,657
Being old with mental health issues and other issues that come with age sounds absolutely horrible
endlessmelancholy
Member
- Jun 12, 2024
- 79
I think I will wait until that point. If I have no one else I will ctb
Yes, waiting for my Dad to pass first but I agree, it is hard. Some days I wonder if I can hold on and, for how much longer.
