39hatsune

39hatsune

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Dec 9, 2025
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im done . im laying my head on the tracks tomorrow i dont care about anyone or anything anymore. how could i after all thats happened? i wanted to use sn, it seemed like a better way to go. however i dont have access to it and i cant wait any longer. i hate this life and all the happy moments arent happy anymore. im sorry to my pets, thats it. but theyll be fine without me. i wasnt on this site for long but it really did help for a while. thank you
 
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ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

Doctor Sleep
Sep 15, 2023
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Good luck, don't be seen don't do it on a straight stretch
 
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Heraskov

Heraskov

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Dec 25, 2025
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thank you, no one really comes around those tracks so i think ill be fine

why cant it be straight ?
I assume it's because the train conductor would spot a person on straight tracks quicker, which could lead to the train stopping. Meanwhile, if they're coming around a curve, they won't be able to see as far ahead.
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

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Nov 19, 2025
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I assume it's because the train conductor would spot a person on straight tracks quicker, which could lead to the train stopping. Meanwhile, if they're coming around a curve, they won't be able to see as far ahead.
Trains take miles to stop, he gets decapitated either way
 
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39hatsune

39hatsune

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Dec 9, 2025
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I assume it's because the train conductor would spot a person on straight tracks quicker, which could lead to the train stopping. Meanwhile, if they're coming around a curve, they won't be able to see as far ahead.
unfortunately these tracks are straight. i still want to try though, im really tired . my only worry is that somehow ill survive and be left really disabled or something
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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I hope you find freedom from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

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Nov 19, 2025
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I hope to see you in the afterlife, orm.. Nothingness... Or whatever's up there
 
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peacecomingsoon

peacecomingsoon

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Dec 28, 2025
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Wishing you peace and only the best. Know that if it doesn't feel right, you can always wait a little longer. I too understand the feeling of not being able to wait anymore and not caring about anything. I try to remind myself that ctb is permanent though, eternal peace, and that it is not a decision to take lightly or rush, no matter how desperate I am. I really hope you find peace.
 
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im done . im laying my head on the tracks tomorrow i dont care about anyone or anything anymore. how could i after all thats happened? i wanted to use sn, it seemed like a better way to go. however i dont have access to it and i cant wait any longer. i hate this life and all the happy moments arent happy anymore. im sorry to my pets, thats it. but theyll be fine without me. i wasnt on this site for long but it really did help for a while. thank you
I am so sorry:( I am in an equal place my life is nothing but pain and this pain is unbearable so I also wanna ctb asap now.
Is your si also getting less and less the more you suffer every day?
 
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39hatsune

39hatsune

i love you
Dec 9, 2025
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Wishing you peace and only the best. Know that if it doesn't feel right, you can always wait a little longer. I too understand the feeling of not being able to wait anymore and not caring about anything. I try to remind myself that ctb is permanent though, eternal peace, and that it is not a decision to take lightly or rush, no matter how desperate I am. I really hope you find peace.
thank you
I am so sorry:( I am in an equal place my life is nothing but pain and this pain is unbearable so I also wanna ctb asap now.
Is your si also getting less and less the more you suffer every day?
thank you and im sorry about your situation too
yeah, its like the more that happens, the less i care
not that i did much in the first place anyway
 
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