Ctb today

[TVtrays]

All I ever do is make things hard for everyone and do the wrong thing but I'm finally gonna do the right thing today. This is it. If I don't update y'all by 1am EST, then I've done it. Thanks for everything, guys.

 

[Yorkshire91]

Wish you all the best. Safe travels.

 

[rue]

hope you find peace

 

[TiredOfLife95]

I wish you a safe exit and find peace ❤

 

[BPD_LE]

❤

 

[WhyWasIBorn]

I want to leave today too

 

[Mikemikemike]

Good luck all the best

 

[Rachel74]

Hope you find peace

 

[alexithymia]

I wish you all the peace in the world.

 

[ImSorryEmma]

Hope you find peace, safe travels.

 

[epic]

Hey @TVtrays
Whats wrong ? Why are you doing it?
Have you considered help?

 

[First loss]

Good luck. I hope you go peacefully.

 

[lotus11]

wishing you peace and freedom

 

[ddim]

Sleep tight, and wake up in the peace, good night.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Hope you find peace mate.

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[Dawn0071111]

Have a safe and peaceful journey

 

[TVtrays]

Why the fuck is it so hard? The train comes so fast and I get too fucking scared and I'm too broke to afford enough alcohol to get me drunk enough to do it and I've got no money and nowhere to go. FUCK I JUST WANT TO DIE

 

[SourIntent]

All I ever do is make things hard for everyone and do the wrong thing but I'm finally gonna do the right thing today. This is it. If I don't update y'all by 1am EST, then I've done it. Thanks for everything, guys.

Sorry to see this. I hope it releases your pain.

 

[ThingWithFeathers]

Will see you online at 1am EST.

 

[TVtrays]

God damnit I can't even die right. I'm a fucking coward. I'm sorry... I was so ready. Had everything as perfect as they could be for this but when it came down to it, the thought of my body being torn to shreds popped into my mind right before i was about to jump. I tried listening to music and distracting myself until it was time but that did nothing... I'm sorry guys. I'm sleeping on the streets tonight because nothing runs until the morning. I'll never find peace

 

[ThingWithFeathers]

It's ok TVtrays, no need to force yourself to ctb. Let life run its course. *hugs*

 

[okaoki]

i wish you peaceful exit

 

[Blackjack]

God damnit I can't even die right. I'm a fucking coward. I'm sorry... I was so ready. Had everything as perfect as they could be for this but when it came down to it, the thought of my body being torn to shreds popped into my mind right before i was about to jump. I tried listening to music and distracting myself until it was time but that did nothing... I'm sorry guys. I'm sleeping on the streets tonight because nothing runs until the morning. I'll never find peace

You were planning to jump in front of a train?

It's ok TVtrays, no need to force yourself to ctb. Let life run its course. *hugs*

Should you maybe be in the Recovery section of this site? You just signed on here tonight and are seemingly posting against people's free will to exit as they see fit in the Discussion section. It's not necessarily helpful to people here who have made up their minds. There's lots of room for cheerleaders in Recovery.

 

[Bathsheba]

You were planning to jump in front of a train?


Should you maybe be in the Recovery section of this site? You just signed on here tonight and are seemingly posting against people's free will to exit as they see fit in the Discussion section. It's not necessarily helpful to people here who have made up their minds. There's lots of room for cheerleaders in Recovery.

I whole heartedly agree. Why come on a site like this just to try to talk people out of their decision? The main thing that makes this site different from other sites is that we don't do that.. It's respect for the individual's autonomy; that they aren't stupid and don't need to be pushed or influenced, just offered understanding.

 

[ProlongedSentence]

Why the fuck is it so hard? The train comes so fast and I get too fucking scared and I'm too broke to afford enough alcohol to get me drunk enough to do it and I've got no money and nowhere to go. FUCK I JUST WANT TO DIE

This is gonna land you in Mandatory Eval. Your intent involves the lives of others. The train engioneer in the least.

 

[Stan]

You have absolutely no need to apologise for anything. I hope you can forgive yourself to give you the time to gather your thoughts and find whatever direction is right for you. Maybe revisit your method as I can only imagine it must be an absolute harrowing event being on a train track with an express train coming. my hopes and thoughts are with you

 

[Morphosis]

God damnit I can't even die right. I'm a fucking coward. I'm sorry... I was so ready. Had everything as perfect as they could be for this but when it came down to it, the thought of my body being torn to shreds popped into my mind right before i was about to jump. I tried listening to music and distracting myself until it was time but that did nothing... I'm sorry guys. I'm sleeping on the streets tonight because nothing runs until the morning. I'll never find peace

Takes a lot of balls to even consider this method so I don't think you're a coward at all, I think you're very brave.