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[howunfortunateforme]

It's going to be my time soon. As soon as my sun arrives. I have everything else. The physical pain from dystonia, Td, , insomnia, eyes burning, light sensitivity sound sensitivity, unable to go anywhere unable to sleep or nap. Unable to enjoy the little things has taken its toll. I did not want to be in this situation. I failed in February so I can't fail again. My plan is to fast 8 hours All I can do family watches food intake,
8:00 stop liquids
9:00 Tylenol 1000
9:20 meto times 3
9:40 benzos mix solution
10:00 drink sn

My spouse may hear vommiting but I vommit gag daily anyway so he's used to it.

How does this sound? Appreciate all of you and don't want to be leaving but am left no choice with all of my physical ailments plus mental psych med damage. It's sad bc it wasn't supposed to be tbis way I have a beautiful family and home. I wish this wasn't the ending but I have no choice. Any input for plan or benzos is greatly appreciated the suffering needs to end.

 

[an alien]

I'm so so sorry you've gotten to this point. I'm not sure what your condition is but I also deal with snow, light sensitivity, and the eye burning issues and its such hell. To have to deal with that on top of your other issues must be awful and you're so strong to have dealt with them so long. Seems like you're doing the best you can with your plan in terms of meto and such. My worry for you would be SN is reversible if you are found in time so doing it with people in the home is a risk. I hope you can find and know peace cause you dont deserve the medical hell of a hand you've been dealt.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's all just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering but anyway I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

It really sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's all just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering but anyway I hope you find the relief you search for.

Way more than I should have were all suffering. But this is extreme.

 

[maniac116]

 

[SA1994EC]

You seem to have a beautiful family whom you love so much. Despite that, you are suffering unbearable physical, neurological pain and need it to end. So it is so sad to see you have to take the path. I feel your pain from the disorder, and really the pain from leaving your family. I only wish your journey to be smooth and you to be at peace at the end.

 

[LostSoul1965]

OP I wish you the best in whatever you choose to do. I'm sorry for your terrible suffering and pain. May you have the peace and serenity you deserve.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

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You seem to have a beautiful family whom you love so much. Despite that, you are suffering unbearable physical, neurological pain and need it to end. So it is so sad to see you have to take the path. I feel your the pain from the disorder, and really the pain from leaving your family. I only wish your journey to be smooth and you to be at peace at the end.

My beautiful family was taken from me which is so sad. It didn't have to be this way. Thank you big pharma for killing me wnd taking my kids my away

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's so awful what you have to go through. I hope you find peace

 

[an alien]

You dont have to be fully alone if you dont want to be, there will be people here with you as long as you need an outlet as you go through your preparations. No matter what we are here if you need to talk. Is there a color that is meaningful to you at all? It so clear how dearly you love your family and dont want to be in this position and its the very least I can do to light a candle and keep you and your family in my heart and be sending them healing energy through an awful situation.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

You dont have to be fully alone if you dont want to be, there will be people here with you as long as you need an outlet as you go through your preparations. No matter what we are here if you need to talk. Is there a color that is meaningful to you at all? It so clear how dearly you love your family and dont want to be in this position and its the very least I can do to light a candle and keep you and your family in my heart and be sending them healing energy through an awful situation.

That would be amazing Can you chat me?

 

[an alien]

That would be amazing Can you chat me?

Ah dangit I tried to and got a blank page. This is a new account for me so chat is not unlocked yet. I can only DM.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

wishing you peace and relief in whatever the outcome

 

[sweetcreep]

i'm sorry about the pain you are going through and about your family. i hope that you're able to find peace. you're not alone in this.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

It's not fair