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easypeasy

easypeasy

The.only.white.sheep
Jul 1, 2024
183
Hello Comrades..

In the event anybody has followed my messages, I wanted to provide an accurate update on the timeline for ctb. At the end, I also have 2 questions which I'd love your input on, big or small:
  • My ctb plan was initially January 2025. However, 2 close friends have birthdays in January. So that's out.
  • I also received an invite to my Uncle's 80th on Jan 30th. I am very close with my Aunt and Uncle. So it has to be after that.
  • My lease is up on the 12th of Feb, so if I ctb on Feb 5th, it gives my family a week to vacate and clean my place.
  • I have paid my rent until the end of my lease.
Questions:
1. Should I book and arrange the post rental clean for the 10th of Feb? I've found the perfect person who does post lease cleanups inside and outside. I think that it will be too short notice for my mother or Aunt to arrange a clean last minute. I can leave his phone number behind so they can cancel if needed. But, they may be busy dealing with funeral arrangements.

2. Option 2 is to wait until after my rental is empty and clean, and I have moved out. But I live every second in physical torture, immobility and am not dealing with the stress of betrayal I've uncovered and continue to uncover about my mother and siblings. Being exposed to that and having to play nice and pretend will send me into a very bad place, so much so I can't organise moving, let alone into a room next to my mother. The extent and breadth of betrayal isn't ending..it has gotten worse.

3. I have 3 ctb location options: Should I ctb in my rental or go to a hotel to avoid any possible tension between my family and the rental agent and owner? The 3rd option is to get the key to my Mums run down old house which I would be moving to….and ctb there. She is only there 3 days a week. She plans to knock it down, anyway.

I appreciate any Input. The physical pain impedes my judgement.

Thank you xox
 
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3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
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I went to do in my birthday.
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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I hope things work well for you in your plans and eventual release from this prison called 'life'. I wish you peace in your future endeavors. :hug:
 
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DeadManLiving

DeadManLiving

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Sep 9, 2022
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If you are a CTBing at your rental place, it will become a crime scene. The property management company's insurer would have coverage for these cases to cover the cost of lost rent and clear out.

The most significant questions here are less so about the small details, but more about whether you are making the correct decision.

You must have to have sufficient probabilistic information to know that foreclosing on your life now or in some near future will be the best choice and it would be true that you would in fact be better off dead than alive - a process that takes a lot of effort and years.
 
easypeasy

easypeasy

The.only.white.sheep
Jul 1, 2024
183
I went to do in my birthday.
You already tried on your birthday or you want to? When is your birthday?
If you are a CTBing at your rental place, it will become a crime scene. The property management company's insurer would have coverage for these cases to cover the cost of lost rent and clear out.

The most significant questions here are less so about the small details, but more about whether you are making the correct decision.

You must have to have sufficient probabilistic information to know that foreclosing on your life now or in some near future will be the best choice and it would be true that you would in fact be better off dead than alive - a process that takes a lot of effort and years.
thanks for replying. Very smart and thoughtful of you to do that. Thank you… great points….
 
3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
53
You already tried on your birthday or you want to? When is your birthday?
I want to do in my birthday. This year I tried but my survival instinct didn't made it yet I will try my upcoming birthday. It's in 13 January. Hope I do it :)
 
DeadManLiving

DeadManLiving

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Sep 9, 2022
299
If you don't mind sharing, can you describe has brought you to this point in a few sentences at least?
 
easypeasy

easypeasy

The.only.white.sheep
Jul 1, 2024
183
I don't know what you're going through right now that made you think I am questioning my decision. Respectfully, my post wasn't a justification for my departure. Nor do I owe that to you. Should you want to understand the reasons…my posts are there to be read.

I share your sentiment that every avenue should be explored, and confused as to why you think we differ in that regard. I can justify my decision, but my post would be almost a hundred pages, including 10 years of medical and surgical reports and photographs. Given your response, I don't wish to waste that energy considering the pain I am already enduring just exisiting.

Respectfully, I fail to see anywhere in my post that suggests I doubt my decision, and your response would land better if you provided examples. All the best, mate.
If you are a CTBing at your rental place, it will become a crime scene. The property management company's insurer would have coverage for these cases to cover the cost of lost rent and clear out.

The most significant questions here are less so about the small details, but more about whether you are making the correct decision.

You must have to have sufficient probabilistic information to know that foreclosing on your life now or in some near future will be the best choice and it would be true that you would in fact be better off dead than alive - a process that takes a lot of effort and years.
Severe, debilitating pain brought about from a series of unexpected series of complications, starting 7 years ago. Along with it, degenerative mobility and pain. I considered a hemicorporectomy but I don't qualify or have family support to care for someone in such a state.
 
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easypeasy

The.only.white.sheep
Jul 1, 2024
183
What's ur method?
Originally Nitrous Gas but I couldn't work the regulator. Now it's chemicals, but I'd rather keep this thread on topic. I do have other posts I discuss different things like method, though :)

Had I had the funds, I would've travelled to Dignitas, as my physical situation would qualify me.
 

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