CTB in 2 days

[thatsall]

i am so horrified.

i leave my home tomorrow morning very early to catch my flight and then after spending a day out there, ill be shooting myself. i am so nervous, so horrified of being reported missing, so nervous that theres nothing beyond this life and that i will have wasted it all for nothing.

i have lived such a life. im ready to not be in mental pain or physical pain anymore. i was born with a rare disorder called cystinuria that gives me kidney stones from just eating. every day i am in pain. but this is still so hard to end. not for my sake, but for everyone who loves me.

 

[Cress]

Usually most people are at peace when catching the bus. Are you absolutely sure you aren't feeling any pressure because you're trying to line up your death with another person? Either way I'm sorry you've reached this point where you feel like there's no other way out. I respect your decision and I wish you nothing but the best. My Dms are open if you ever want someone to talk to Over the next two days.

Thank you for the time that you've spent as a human. You'll probably never know the lives that you've affected but I'm sure you're meaningful to people out there.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

i am so horrified.

i leave my home tomorrow morning very early to catch my flight and then after spending a day out there, ill be shooting myself. i am so nervous, so horrified of being reported missing, so nervous that theres nothing beyond this life and that i will have wasted it all for nothing.

I wasted my life in many ways, none more apparent than now. I know the anguish. Terrible choices made in fear caused all of this for me. I don't know where you're going, I don't know how it will end or what comes next. I wish you peace.

 

[thatsall]

Usually most people are at peace when catching the bus. Are you absolutely sure you aren't feeling any pressure because you're trying to line up your death with another person? Either way I'm sorry you've reached this point where you feel like there's no other way out. I respect your decision and I wish you nothing but the best. My Dms are open if you ever want someone to talk to Over the next two days.

Thank you for the time that you've spent as a human. You'll probably never know the lives that you've affected but I'm sure you're meaningful to people out there.

this made me sob violently. i feel as though my purpose in this world was to be hated, and to be treated with kindness like this is something i am so unfamiliar with, yet so grateful for. from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much.

 

[Fate]

Please do be sure before you ctb as there is no coming back. The bus will always be there for when you're ready to jump on.

 

[thatsall]

Please do be sure before you ctb as there is no coming back. The bus will always be there for when you're ready to jump on.

id say im ready to go, but i think its harder to live through your end days knowing that youve been planning meticulously for months and it gets real. its going to be very hard driving away from my home for the very last time and leaving my unassuming parents asleep upstairs. thats what hurts me the most

I wasted my life in many ways, none more apparent than now. I know the anguish. Terrible choices made in fear caused all of this for me. I don't know where you're going, I don't know how it will end or what comes next. I wish you peace.

thank you. i just feel like im on a seesaw of emotion. the SI is absolutely horrible, no matter how devastated i feel and how much pain im in.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace. Good luck!

 

[thatsall]

I hope you find peace. Good luck!

thank you a million.

 

[Steff1337]

Whatever happens, I wish you that you find eternal peace from this cruel existence.

 

[depressia]

удачи

 

[FuneralCry]

It truly is so cruel how there's all this suffering in existing, I wish you all the best.

 

[razahcareca27]

last days are tuff for most people. peace be with you, better of luck to u