CTB Early 2020

[Read123456788]

I've been on this site a while now and oddly "enjoyed" my time on hear. It really does help. I've tried and failed to ctb previously but only got caught once which I've been able to play down.

Anyhow I'm planning on ctb just after Christmas / new year once I've done the jobs I need to do prior.

Thinking of going using either a generator or caffeine powder just because why not. Don't mind how I get out of here (within limits not got it in me to jump etc)

Thinking of what to do in the meantime. I do have work which I've just gone off sick and I have the jobs I need to do but how does everyone get by in the meantime.

It's overwhelming for me at the minute to resist ctb now and really want/got to see this year out first. Ahhh

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I am the same. Trying to avoid doing it during special holidays and birthdays. I'm going in April.

Sorry you've had to come to this decision. x

 

[Read123456788]

Sorry for you too. That's a similar situation for me

 

[Rachel74]

Can I be stupid and ask what does caffeine powder do?

 

[BipolarExpat]

Can I be stupid and ask what does caffeine powder do?

From what I understand it's similar to an amphetamine OD. Severe panic, heart racing, sweats, extreme anxiety, racing mind w/ horrible hallucinations. Excruciating. And takes quite awhile to succumb.

 

[Rachel74]

Something new I've learnt. Thanks BE x

 

[Read123456788]

BE is right Rachel. I can't imagine it being everyone's choice as not very peaceful but the thought gets me excited hahaha