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shinitai_sh0jo
Is it so selfish to want to feel a little better?
- Dec 30, 2023
- 103
It'll probably be the only day for me to do it, but I guess I should still try. I'm not sure if I have all the courage to do it... But I feel like I'm losing the ability to care for the ones I thought that I thought I valued so much.
Things are slowly getting more and more senseless, and each time I hear that I am "making up" something that bothers me/I think bothers others makes me want to explode in a million pieces.
I don't want to study. I don't want to live my whole life for a future of which I'm not sure about anything at all. I'm tired of feeling that I care too much about the "few times" where I miscommunicated to someone... It's like my mouth it's not even mine.
I'll try to follow the routine I have settled for the weekend, and might go for it on Saturday night. I'll keep actualizing this tomorrow, as well. (And will answer about whatever I didn't wrote, here.)
Fuck I never planned this before I hope I can do this right.
Things are slowly getting more and more senseless, and each time I hear that I am "making up" something that bothers me/I think bothers others makes me want to explode in a million pieces.
I don't want to study. I don't want to live my whole life for a future of which I'm not sure about anything at all. I'm tired of feeling that I care too much about the "few times" where I miscommunicated to someone... It's like my mouth it's not even mine.
I'll try to follow the routine I have settled for the weekend, and might go for it on Saturday night. I'll keep actualizing this tomorrow, as well. (And will answer about whatever I didn't wrote, here.)
Fuck I never planned this before I hope I can do this right.