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melonpan
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- Sep 9, 2024
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Originally, my motives to commit suicide were from guilt in living a good life (because I'm a parasite latching onto my parents)
Now, it just became something I want to do because I'm scared to face reality. When I want to escape a situation, I seek death. This actually was a thing as a kid though where I would think "if I died .. I wouldn't need to go to school/do hw" and before that, it was "if I died, I won't become old and grow up"
Maybe I've always been a coward at heart anyways, I'm planning to CTB tomorrow IF NOT Monday but who knows if I wussy out
Now, it just became something I want to do because I'm scared to face reality. When I want to escape a situation, I seek death. This actually was a thing as a kid though where I would think "if I died .. I wouldn't need to go to school/do hw" and before that, it was "if I died, I won't become old and grow up"
Maybe I've always been a coward at heart anyways, I'm planning to CTB tomorrow IF NOT Monday but who knows if I wussy out