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persepexa

persepexa

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Feb 7, 2025
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First of all thank you to everyone who commented on my previous post. I was planning to CTB tonight but after careful consideration I have decided I just couldn't do it to my family. It would destroy them. So I'm back to square one. No money, no job, no friends. But we'll see. I'm just so unhappy.
 
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LastAcrobat

LastAcrobat

So Long and Thanks for all the Fish
Nov 7, 2025
56
You have family, you have us, and you have your life. That's a place to start from. Even if it isn't much, anything is infinitely larger than 0.
 
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MaxStirner

MaxStirner

My life is my property.
Jan 27, 2026
9
First of all thank you to everyone who commented on my previous post. I was planning to CTB tonight but after careful consideration I have decided I just couldn't do it to my family. It would destroy them. So I'm back to square one. No money, no job, no friends. But we'll see. I'm just so unhappy.
The choice to ctb is entirely yours. If you, for the reason listed, want to continue going, that's entirely up to you, as well. Keep in mind that things can always change for the better, and let the random chance of life be a consolation to you when you have nothing else.
 
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Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
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Sorry the turmoil your going through. It's a tough place to be in...

Have you considered trying to become self employed to get around your work problems/criminal record? Just a suggestion you could maybe look into. There are some jobs that don't necessarily require vetting from police etc. Or it's more a soft check like fit and proper person type thing, which can be less restrictive in nature.
 
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MaxStirner

MaxStirner

My life is my property.
Jan 27, 2026
9
Sorry the turmoil your going through. It's a tough place to be in...

Have you considered trying to become self employed to get around your work problems/criminal record? Just a suggestion you could maybe look into. There are some jobs that don't necessarily require vetting from police etc. Or it's more a soft check like fit and proper person type thing, which can be less restrictive in nature.
I second this. Animal shelters, as long as the crime did not involve something with an animal, will allow you to volunteer and then apply to work there. I speak from experience. Much better than working with humans, although it is a taxing job, physically and emotionally. Too many people leave animals behind.
 
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metfan647

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Jun 12, 2025
161
No shame in your decision. See it as time to turn a corner with your MH with the choice always being there for you...for all of us.
 
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vyvanceandvodka

vyvanceandvodka

hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♡
Jan 7, 2026
108
Sending you so much love :heart:
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Sending love, and hope that happiness finds a way to creep into your life in unexpected ways, even if little by little. All the best.
 
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