I can sympathize with you. I tried an OD on oxycodone as my first attempt this year. I took 30 times my normal dose, and nothing. I slept for 2 days and puked some.
I then tried Oxycodone and Clonidine. Same damn thing - lots of sleep and a couple of pukes.
i then tried partial hangin. I don't pass out either. I'll choke and cough but never go blank or get more dizzy than normal.
Four days ago I tried what should have been a lethal dose of Clonodine, 2 1/2 mg. I couldn't stand or walk for two days. Fell out of bed, down stairs, off the toilet - scrapes, cuts, bruises, and a black eye are all I got.
This morning I tried a couple of Flexeril, 2 Clonidine, and 4 Oxycodones. Just got sleepy. So decided I'd try the partial hanging as well today- nothing again.
I'm trying to do it before my cancer robs my brain much more. Next up is jumping/falling off a parking garage