Emily_Numb
Wizard
- Jan 14, 2020
- 654
So a couple of weeks ago I was rushed to hospital with a Suicide attempt which obviously wasn't planned well as I'm still here. I was referred to the Crisis Team once I left the hospital.
They came out to the house with a doctor and just talked things through with me and then referred me to some person who basically rings up every 2 days to ask me how suicidal I am on a scale of 1-5 including some other questions. Not any help or support, a literal box checking exercise. They have taken me off ANY rescue medication for panic attacks which is absolutely outrageous. So all I have to survive on is 20mg of Escitalopram every day.
The past week I've been spiralling down to the point where I don't leave my home, don't take calls, totally isolate myself. My husband was also down to be contacted when they can't get hold of me as they have been told when I'm depressed they need to go through him.
So today I get a hand delivered letter from them saying 'if we don't hear from you before 12noon today, we will remove you from our care!' - So someone could come all the way to my house to post a letter but couldn't knock on my door for a welfare check? I called them twice today and left messages for them to call me back. My husband called them and I've been having repeated panic attacks and derealisation all day. To the point where I want to CTB to stop the feeling That way, their response was...
'Has she tried breathing exercises?'
'Has she called the Samaritans?'
'Um, I guess we can call you later to see if she's any better.'
What sort of 'help' is any of this? 'We will call you later?' - and do what? Nothing is the answer.
'If she leaves the house call emergency services'
I'm just at an absolute loss as to the point in the CMHT. What is the actual point in having a service that's supposed to help when they say such redundant shit and are incapable of actually helping?!
I'm not one for ranting about myself on here but wtf? Am I being unreasonable to expect some actual help/medication/advice/support?
They came out to the house with a doctor and just talked things through with me and then referred me to some person who basically rings up every 2 days to ask me how suicidal I am on a scale of 1-5 including some other questions. Not any help or support, a literal box checking exercise. They have taken me off ANY rescue medication for panic attacks which is absolutely outrageous. So all I have to survive on is 20mg of Escitalopram every day.
The past week I've been spiralling down to the point where I don't leave my home, don't take calls, totally isolate myself. My husband was also down to be contacted when they can't get hold of me as they have been told when I'm depressed they need to go through him.
So today I get a hand delivered letter from them saying 'if we don't hear from you before 12noon today, we will remove you from our care!' - So someone could come all the way to my house to post a letter but couldn't knock on my door for a welfare check? I called them twice today and left messages for them to call me back. My husband called them and I've been having repeated panic attacks and derealisation all day. To the point where I want to CTB to stop the feeling That way, their response was...
'Has she tried breathing exercises?'
'Has she called the Samaritans?'
'Um, I guess we can call you later to see if she's any better.'
What sort of 'help' is any of this? 'We will call you later?' - and do what? Nothing is the answer.
'If she leaves the house call emergency services'
I'm just at an absolute loss as to the point in the CMHT. What is the actual point in having a service that's supposed to help when they say such redundant shit and are incapable of actually helping?!
I'm not one for ranting about myself on here but wtf? Am I being unreasonable to expect some actual help/medication/advice/support?